sometimes i wonder if you see the way my soul twists and squirms
under my mask of smiles, the pain i feel tears and rips at me until i am hollow
and all you see is smiles and fake happiness i' have made for you
i want you to be happy
i die every time your full loving smile falls
and your clear muddy pond eyes hurt
but if you know what i go through to keep you smiling
you would cry, and that i cannot have
so i bottle and sallow the feelings i have
the things i wish to yell and curse at you
i cry alone hurt, in the dark to keep it from you
but i fear my sweet, it's to much to hold
and the way you treat me now, cuts deep
i am bleed and crying and still i smile for you
the agonizing abuse splintering and blistering my being
i wonder if you see me, my pain
and hate me for it
Sorry my beloved Friend
under my mask of smiles, the pain i feel tears and rips at me until i am hollow
and all you see is smiles and fake happiness i' have made for you
i want you to be happy
i die every time your full loving smile falls
and your clear muddy pond eyes hurt
but if you know what i go through to keep you smiling
you would cry, and that i cannot have
so i bottle and sallow the feelings i have
the things i wish to yell and curse at you
i cry alone hurt, in the dark to keep it from you
but i fear my sweet, it's to much to hold
and the way you treat me now, cuts deep
i am bleed and crying and still i smile for you
the agonizing abuse splintering and blistering my being
i wonder if you see me, my pain
and hate me for it
Sorry my beloved Friend
