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I can't seem to get my profile to work, so I thought I would use this instead. Does that make sense? Probably not. So yeah. I am the startled earwig, and these are my thoughts. They are not very intelligent, but I will put them here anyways. :) |
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Duckie110
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Posted: Sat Jan 26, 2008 @ 09:34pm
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The Heart Never Lies - Alexis Lynn Canning
Women who long, love, lust Women who give It’s the way that we live|^|GhostSaber|^|fighting, [********], crying, drinkingThis disaster we callAlexis Lynn CanningBut call meAlex, LexiAge means nothingTwenty March 1990 = SeventeenFlesh and blood I may look like a guy, but I don't have a d**k. Guess that means I'm gay then, huh?It's just how I rollSo, you wanna know about my personality? Hm, well I guess I try to act cooler then I really am. Funny, right? I mean I don't care if I'm the cool kid or not. To tell the truth though, I'm just being myself. Which includes being stupid most of the time, being accident prone, being blind to most things in front of my face and to the fact that no matter how hard I try to hide it I act and look very gay. But, besides all that, that’s the normal me and I love it. Even though I try to hide it all the time.
Though to every happily, bubbly side there’s always that mean, angry, bitchy side too and I'm not acception. I have a very shot temper and a even shorter fuse. There actually is a good point to that though. There’s only a few ways for someone to actually shorten my fuse. The biggest one is messing with my friends, if you do that I hope you’re ready for a fight. I normally wouldn’t resort to violence…. Well, actually I would. I’m a violent person, that’s not something easy to hide. It’s not like I would act on it though, I have more respect for people then to just act on my violent tends and best the s**t out of them. It's a little fuzzy, but I'll tell you what I know Oh! Now you wanna about my life, huh? Well, there’s not much to tell. First, I’m not from London, you should be able to tell from my German accent and how I mix German with English, it comes out a jumbled mess, that I was born and raised for half my life there. Then the bright ones that I call my parents wanted to move to London, why? I have no clue, ask them. So, now here I am in London, not that I hate it, I actually like it. It’s fun, I’ve meet new people and made new friends. While I was here though, I found something out about myself that I’m scared to tell my parents. If they found out I’m not sure how they would act o what they would do. I guess you want to know what I realized about myself, huh? Well, I guess I can tell you, I realized that I was in no way shape or form attracted to men. That’s right; I’m gay, a lesbian, and a homo. What ever you want to call it, I’m it.
Sadly, being gay comes with its fears, it’s not like I can just run out of my room and scream ‘Hey! I’m gay!’ Your ******** kidding yourself if you would think I would do that. I mean I haven’t been here as long as everyone else, so I really don’t know all the view on Homosexuals here yet. I’m working on it though because I’m tired of hiding who I really am. It’s tiresome and stressful even though I know I’m not the only one with stress, I’ve always had a hard time dealing with it. So, if I could I would just get rid if it, but sadly I can’t. Therefore I just deal with it on my way.
-- I have a tattoo on the back of my neck; it’s my name in Japanese. -- I hate pink; It’s too bright of a color. -- I’ve never had long hair and it’s going to stay like that. -- I love hats; I always have one on my head, if not a hat a hood. -- I love Musicals; don’t tell anyone, but I sing along with them. -- Techno music; It’s mostly the only thing I listen to. -- In Germany I had a Bio constructor and it would sleep in bed with me. -- I found Jamie in a sewer. -- My room is covered in rave posters. -- Even though I love video games and musicals, I don’t watch TV. If it’s not on a DVD then I wont watch it. If I could I'd changeBeing accident pron - Hurting myself every two seconds isn't fun, and my hair color - I love dark red, so why not have it as a hair color.I'll never changeMy eye color - I love how they change color to how I'm feeling, and my smile, I think it's rather charming corny I know. I think I'm in heaven - Penguins, why I don't know, I just think they're so cute. - Music, no matter where I go I always have my music. - My laptop, it goes everywhere with me and I mean everywhere. - Sleeping, if I'm not out hanging with friends, on my computer or at school, then I'm sleeping. - Playing guitar, I play it almost every hour of every day. - Friends, what would anyone be with out them? - Girl one, I just love being around her. - My dog, Jamie the only one that sees the true me. - Fire, it's pretty, isn't that reason enough? - Video games, they keep me busy when theres nothing to do.My idea of hell - Spiders, got bit once and that all it took. - Homophobes, the real reason I'm scared. - Needles, god damn pointy things, keep 'em away. - Snow, it's way to cold for my liking. - No music, I would die if I actually had listen to what most people are saying. - Thunderstorms, well more thunder then the lighting. - onions, those things are gross. - Being seen naked, I hate my body. - Drama, the less I'm in it. The better it is. - People who judge you before getting to know you.Shh, my darkest secretI smoke, what you think thats not bad? Well, it's not cigarettes I smoke. I mean I need some way just to make stress leave my body and thats how I do it, my own little buddy Marijuana. Of course, no one knows I smoke it, it's not like I smoke all the time anyway. Just when I really cant take the stress of everything. Don't call me a baby[x-x] - Being discriminated against at school. [x-x] - My parents finding out. [x-x] - Jamie being taken from me.Ear sexI hate everything about you by Three Days GraceIt's you I loveI just can't seem to keep girl one out of my head.
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