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Yeah it's not only hard being Red, it's scary to. Just the other day my mom told me about an Indian reservation that was being evacuated "or in my words taken over" by police officers for no reason at all, unnecessary beatings and arrests were involved. Guess where this reservation was? Canada, that's right CANADA!!!!! Well I guess I'm not going there either if there's a draft. Nobody really knows how scary this s**t really is so let me explain. In the north Native Americans have little "I refuse to say no because I haven't been north" segregation, because when it was banned everyone out there believed it was for everybody, which is good because EVERYBODY was in that march. Now in the south THEY believed that the ban of segregation went towards black people and black people only. Don't believe me? go to a town that's not far from a reservation and you will see signs on bars or bathrooms that will say "No prairie Niggers allowed". Ok now Canada is north, not south, so if s**t like this is going on in CANADA then we are ********!
Well not completely we still could go to Mexico beings everybody's leaving there, but still if you have been told that Canada is a great place to go for the longest time and then out of no where you hear that your people in Canada are being treated like s**t makes you want to cry.
These are scary times my friends, I'm just glad that there are good white people in the world. Believe it or not there are Indians who believe that we can't trust any white people, I don't believe that cause if there were no good white people I wouldn't be here typing this. Well a lot of Indians would say I'm not actually Indian either because I don't have a tribal card. For those of you who don't know a tribal card is a license you get from the government to prove that you're Native American. I will never get one because I believe it's a way for the government to keep track of us. Think about it, why would they give us a card to prove we are Indian they don't give cards like this to anyone else they don't give it to black people or white people just us and it's not like we can use the card in emergencies, if there was a car accident it's not like we can go around yelling "It's okay I'm Native American it's alright I have had a vision that this would happen just chill". It's ridiculous and I don't understand why my people get them, first of all we get the license from the government and we hate the government more then ANYONE so why are my people buying them? Is it so they can remember they are Indian or what? To me it's just a bell that the government puts on our necks to keep track of us, and if something happens around us they can arrest us even if we didn't do anything. It's just like what happened to Leonard Peltier.
Again for those of you who don't know Leonard Peltier is "or was suppose to be" our Martin Luther king. Around the seventies on the Oglala Lakota nation a crime scene happened. Two FBI agents were shot and one Indian was murdered. Three Native Americans were charged with the murder and only one was found guilty....Leonard Peliter. He wasn't even around the crime scene when it happened. He was in a court room of an all white jury who found him guilty, hell even the judge knew he was innocent. There was fake evidence and witnesses, there was this one woman who claimed to be Leonards girlfriend. He didn't have a girlfriend in fact this woman said in an interview that some agents went to her house and threatened to kill her children if she didn't come to court. Can you believe that kind of s**t, it makes me wonder why the hell people want to live here. Well here are the true reasons why he was arrested, because he was Native American, because he was part of the A.I.M "American Indian Movement", and because he said this quote"There is a lot of nights that I lay in my cell and I can't understand why this hell, this terror that I have been going through for 21 years hasn't ended. Again I know in my heart that someone has to pay sacrifice to make things better for our people. The sacrifice that I have made when I really sit down to think about it is nothing compared to what our people of 100 years ago or 50 years ago or 25 years ago have made. Some gave their lives, some had to stand there and watch their children die in their arms so the sacrifice I made is nothing compared to those. I've gone too far to start backing down, I won't give up. Not until my people are free will I give up. If I have to sacrifice some more then I sacrifice some more." that's the reason why he's in jail to this day. It's the reason why I don't trust any government official, I'm counting democrats too because Clinton was suppose to sign Leonards release form but he didn't do you know why? Because he was afraid, he knew if he did he would make enemies. Or in other words he pussed out. That's one reason I'm never going to vote but I'll talk about that in another topic later.
What I'm saying is that I'm lucky, I'm lucky I don't live on a reservation, I'm lucky I don't go to an abusive Indian school like my great grandfather did. But just because I'm lucky doesn't mean I'm not scared. I'm scared of being followed then beaten, I'm scared of being evacuated to another country, I'm scared that the clothes in the childrens section of a ******** Wal-Mart will change into army uniforms, I'm even scared of my own dreams where when I wake up from them and I have to check to see if I have any bullets in me. I am afraid of a lot of things but one thing I'm not afraid of is death. I read this one pamphlet from a Christian group about converting Indians, it said in the middle of the pamphlet that Indians are afraid of death. How could they say that? Hey I can take a casino joke but saying something like that is just plain insulting especially beings we are dying in their ******** wars for them. What shocks me most of all is that a lot of my people fall for this crap, because they don't have anymore faith in themselves or for their people. Well my faith is not gone, I believe that we will fight back and become free. I will die for my people, I will sacrifice everything I have for them because I love them.

Note: I know I used the word Indian a lot but I'm a lazy American and Native American takes to long to type. Quite frankly I don't care if people call me Indian, hell when people ask me the question "Are you the dot Indian or the woo woo Indian?" I will answer stupidly "I'm the woo woo one" cause I'm a cool Indian, I don't complain about stupid s**t like that I have bigger things to worry about. If you want to know those bigger things read the entire post again.