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Fear

Fear is what took my life over.
Not the fear like wen you see something creapy.
No the fear of life.
My fear started wen i was a bit younger.
i whasnt happy about my self.
and most people i knew didnt make its eazyer.
Till now i could stay in my save zone at home.
but now am at the part of my life were i have to work on my own.
but this fear keeps me back.
my fear is so deep that am scared to meet new people just becaus
i think those people will think am wierd or wont accept me how i am.
also simple stuff like calling someone i dont know makes it hard for me.
the fear just takes over. its not that i cant do it becaus wen i got my self so far
to talk to a stranger then its all oke.
but thise first step is hard to take becaus Fear takes it over.
i always knew i whas the outsider and the only thing to get ppl to see me is to act funny. but thats on school. Am just scared of life and am not ready for it.
Thise fear took it over and i cant get it away.
but its my problem and am the onlyone that has to take it on.
once you are no longer scared of death then people say you aint scared of nothing.
but that didnt work for me. i said am not longer scared of dieing but that doesnt take my fear away for the real world. how long can i keep thise up.
thats for me to know.
Fear will always hunt you down.


Why do people think wen your 18 you would have to be a grown up man/girl
i say that your age only shows how long you life and your age doesnt tell you how you feel and how you are.