Do you guys wanna know a wish? A wish that I want most in the ENTIRE WORLD? Should I? Or should I not?
Even though they don't seem to exist in this jacked up world, I believe they exist. I believe in them. I'm one of those UNDERSTANDING people. The kind of person that gives thought to the world and other things.
Sure I may be a pain, but that is the way I am. Nobody and I mean NOBODY, can change the way I am now. I've suffered before. My friends have suffered. We may experinence pain that some of us have never been through. I understand a lot of things. Not things like Math.
I understand and I TRY to understand people's feelings. And my friends know it. They all know or they SHOULD know that they can talk to me about anything. I'll understand and I'll try to understand. I try my hardest to try to be happy around my friends. I admit it. I AM one of thos most depressing people. Depression is my most common personality and feelings that I will have everyday. Even though I would be hyper or happy, I would still be depressed behind that.
And I am sorry, and I thank you, Mikoto. I know you want to help but....I just....I just......don't know...
I am terribly angry at myself and I am confused. I don't know what I feel half the time during the day and I...I.....
*Sigh* I disgust myself at most times......
Ever since I moved here, everything has been messed up.....and confusing for me.
At most times, I don't know what to do....I..I just don't know what to do.
I feel like I don't know myself anymore...that I am not......me...
I've done so many terrible things in my past....I'm such a terrible person...
I didn't mean to hurt her....
She was like....a true sister to me.
She was the kind of person that would never ever leave my side.
But I can't believe our friendship ended with.....an unhappy ending...
The last thing I remember is an argument with her. She was the bestest friend I ever had in my entire life so far...even now she still is. I've told a few of my friends about her.
And also the last thing I remember.....
On my last day there at that Elementry school in Pomona.......
I walked right past her, not even looking at her....not even just saying a small goodbye.
*Sigh* Ridiculous....
Mikoto. I am truly sorry I got you angry in History class. I know you already forgave me....I think..anyways, I was just thinking about that depression stuff that Ms. Sears gave us. Eh heh..sorry... sweatdrop
I just remembered some other things about my...."True Sister"
When I told her and another best friend that I was moving here, she BEGGED me to stay in California. She kept telling me things like that Tornados happened here. And definatly Thunderstorms. She begged me, to beg my parents or to convince them to stay there. I told her that my parent's decision was final. Yet she still begged me and tried to convince me to stay there.
She wanted something from me. She wanted only one thing from me. She never told me, but I still figured it out.
What she wanted was everlasting friendship. She wanted to be with me forever, as Sisters.
I figured that out when she kept following me in 4th grade. She was in my class. And I've met and have known her since 1st grade. She is the most definant person I can truly trust to the fullest.
*Chuckles* Once in 4th grade, she made me confess to a guy that I liked before. My last encounter with him was when I almost ran into him on my last day there at that school. And I mean, RAN INTO HIM. As in, when Bella ran into Edward at the day in Italy.
Anyways...I believe that's it...
Mikoto
Shina
Nagisa
Suki
Heigher
Masha
Aerean
Haha! Hilarious!!!!
Ryu!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tomoyo and Kyou!! Kick his a**!!!
Haha! I just had to put this!
Anyways thats it. Bye..
