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If I break into a million little pieces, who will want one?
Lately, I've felt a sense of peace around me, like the world can't touch me anymore. I feel like one who has just woken up from a dream that was more reality, then reality. I feel the world around me, for once in my life. I can't say that I know my place in the world, but I know how I feel when I walk outside, and the wind blows through my hair, and the cold bits my skin and the music blares through my ears, and the static is just beyond my sight. It feels, not good, but a subtle sort of love, for who I really am.
I won't say that I don't feel the bite of being ignored anymore. It's too prominent for that, and something I won't be able to escape for a while. It stings at a level at which I can choose to ignore, all I have to do, is try. Trying's hard, yes, but the reward is worth it, and the time when I won't have to know that anymore, will be the day when I am finally free.
A friend once told me, "It is far better to have no power at all, then a power you dare not use." She was referring to herself, but also to me. I think I know now, what her power is... was. At least at an unconscious level. I miss them all, Wife-san, Satan, Boss-sama. They are the ones that I would trust with my life... and for them, even I would go through hell.
~Out.
Ren
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