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*sigh* wat's wrong with me? i feel...so worthless....lonely....like no one will mind if i fade from existance......i spend hours at night thinking of my miserable life...same old rutine..evry single day...nothing changes same boring life...i don't know who to trust..or wat to believe...i hate hwo everytime i get close to some1 i have my guard up cause i don't i can trust them...even my own family talks behind my back...and th worst is thaT since very1 else hurts me..i feel like its my fault there fore i ned to punish my self by hurting my self...and in soe weird way..i find satisfaction of seeing my scars and my blood flowing on the water of my shower...yes you might think i'm either insane or in some serious depression but i'm at the point that i JUST don't know or care...that's y i always hide behind this FAKE stupid smile so it seems to evry1 else that evrything is fine..and inside i'm not completely broken....