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I don't know why I am typing this journal. Maybe because I'm bored.
Haha!!! Because I am bored.
I just wrote another thing in my random folder. (Those who are my real life friends know what that folder is)
It is true. I've been depressed lately. I'm trying to be happy with my friends.
Even with Shina at school with us......I just can't help it.
Everyone else has cried. I've been closed to crying. But I just keep holding my tears back.
The more I hang out with my friends from school, the more I get the urge of confessing to them of what I think of them. I mean, REALLY, think of them.
It's weird though.....people would always tell me one of their secrets.
I just got told a secret today, but I'm not saying who it is and what it is.
I can keep secrets.
It's probably because people just trust me so easily?
I don't know. But people can get to know me better if they read my other journals or something, well, thats is, if they have a gaia or something.
It would be easier to confess things that I really want to in order to get that burden off my ches t if only my brother haden't made a gaia.
It would be so much easier.
I can't just bring myself to delete him from my friends list.
Maybe because I'm just to nice?
Well, I'm nice to certain people.
Okay, maybe I can confess but the only way is to put the journal on "Private"
But I want my friends to see.
I feel tired, I feel sleepy.
And I just don't know.
There is something that I really need. I hope that that something that I really need is truly real.
I want to find it before time runs out.
I need it. I know that I really need it.
I'll just type it down...in a different journal.
Yeah, I'll do that in order to get that burden off of my chest.
Okay, I believe this is it.
Sayonara.