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crying crying on the inside smiling on the out
so far this is all my life's been about
pain and sorrow are my only friends
that i can count on to always be there

i leave the house but im not free
cause when dark finds me out they come looking 4 me
couldent chill with the fellas or hang with my girl
i bearly got to see her and she was my world

locked my heart in a box n threw it away
somehow she found it n opened it straight away
i dun kno if she tought it was a toy chest or sumthin
but she toyed with my emotions caused me great pain

tore it in half then cut it in fine pieces gave it out
to see how many ppl would throw it out
not suprisingly almost all did
cept for one who nutured it
i collected the pieces n gave them to her
my heart was almost back together

but soon the beat starts to fade
the missing piece must be replaced
i searched hi & low lo & behold
i saw her holding it how it throbed and it glowed

now the true delima begins i ust pick one
so i may b whole again
they r both there and they arent free
but one of these has to be the girl for me

i line em up n they take the test
i try my best to calculate the test
then one of them has liberated herself
so i make a move only to fall flat on my face
she dident want to b more than friends my still sore heart
smashed to pieces again

i'll gather them up when i have the chance but for now
i just watch em getting stomped on totall destroyed by this cruel world
i kno when its done it'll never be whole again
who will want it then no one i guess i haffta keep it for myself
still the same i kno i will put it back in harms way again

im sick n tired of it always getting spat in the face
and holding cold sholders
ppls hearts are so cold its like a glacier
what have i done to deserve this
it seems that good intentions nowadays are worthless
i trust too easily but now its gettin ridiculous

wat i gotta do mistreat n abuse u
tell u ur number 1 when ur really number 2 or 4
or i gotta be a pimp n treat u like a ho
im jus looking for some love n affection
sumone to hold n share a mutal respect
but i guess thats outa the question
i'll just pick the pieces up n start again
why da hell not by now im use to the pain