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I've always known it and this is just my little, once every few months rant and inner collapse.


I am the "Go To" friend.

And no, not the one you go to for advice and stuff like that.

No, I am the friend they go to when no one else is there. When their best friend is out of town and their other friends aren't home. I am the friend they go to when they really want to go out, but not alone, and all their first choices were busy. I am the one they go to for homework, but not weekends.

I am the loser.

The one they talk about behind their back.

I should know, I have overheard them. On several occasions.

I get left out, pushed to third wheel, forgotten, passed over.

It's always the same.

I suck. I am horrible. And I don't deserve anything better.


Like I said...rant and depression with self collapse.