i know i haven't posted in a while. but i have reason to post now. im not gonna be one of those people who does nothing but complain, and feel sorry for their ******** a**, but i do feel hurt enought to write about it this time. so this is the story. i was at my friend courntee's house, and i was on the porch, talking to anna, and choncho.(joseph).
well, anna is in third grade, and choncho in first or second. we were discussing past boyfriends, and current crushes, and i accidentally told choncho that i liked his brother, donald. choncho got so excited, and went and told donald that i liked him and wanted to go ot with him...well he said maybe. may i mention that, he is four years older than me?(btw his gaia name is rush16 not that you care anyways)well later his brother andrew, asked me if i liked donald, and i said yes, im not going to deny the truth...so he asked him out for me, without my permission. and he just happened to say yes. we had a great time, we watched a movie, held hands, bla bla bla, nothing too sappy. all in one night. the next day, i went over to courntee's house to hang out with her, and donald calle dme into his room. he told me that his sister megan saw us holding hands and that she told her mom. and his mom said that he was in deep s**t if he didnt break up with me. so i was like, oh ok, big deal. i didnt mind. then i was leaving the room and andrew was like: just tell her the truth. he was afraid that i was going to mad at him so he had told me a lie. he relaly broke up with me becasue he apparently didnt like me anymore becasuse i was too young. he already has a new girlfriend, doreen, and shamelessly flaunts their relationship. they held hands during a movie, and cuddled, and he kissed her. proclaiming that i was jealous. and yes, i was hella jealous, considering he knew i still liked him, and they were sitting right next to me. i had to leave, to keep from crying. it hurts so bad, and i dont know what to do. and then he told me that he thought i was really pretty, but much too young for him. did i mention that doreen is only two years older than i am? i dont believe so. it hurts so bad, and it feels like my heart is being eaten. i eventually left, and thought i could get over it fast, like all my other bad relationships......i couldnt...and it still hearts, like a whole being eaten in the center of my heart. i am considering cutting, but am deciding way against it, because it can really hurt me and my body. but this is the first time i ever felt like cutting would take away the pain. that hurting myself in another way, would help take the pain away from my heart. but i know that wont happen, and ill just have to deal with it. please comment. i could use some help here..............
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