Went to the doctors today to get my physical for track. I go two shots and a STD scan...fun!not><Anyways I have to take some medicine so I can keep on doing track. Something to do with my heart or something...oh well at least i still get to do track. Besides that I'm going to the zoo this week with my bf. Should be fun^^Hope i feel better though cause i feel like a piece of crap right now><I think I'm going to go take a nap or something maybe then I'll feel better...or maybe not. Oh well, i made some new poems here they are
Black
He's dark and cold. He never does what he's told. Whenever I look him in the eye.It's so dark it makes me die. I quickly look away. We have nothing to say. I try to look at your heart. I notice that it's been broken from the start. I reach for
your hand. The glance you give turns me to sand. As I turn to walk away from you. Slowly I walk as I start to realize what I knew. From the very moment I met you. I knew what you could do. I knew who you really where. But not anymore.You changed so fast. I really wanted us to last. I know you're what I lack. But you have turned black
Promise
Promise that you'll stay. And that you wont go your own way. I need you know and forever. Please don't leave me, no never. Without you I don't know what I'd be. Leave me and I'll pay a great fee. My heart will lay on the floor. As you walk out the door. The floor becomes wet with tears. I look at myself in the mirror. I see the good, and bad times. Please come back and make my world shine.I need you more then you'll ever know. I just hope you come back so you can see me show. You think you're not good enough for me. Without you I don't know where I'd be. Though you have left me for another. I will always love you like a brother. That's the feelings I will show. So you'll never know. How much I love you. And all that you do. I wont give up on you my love. For this one reason:you are my dove
Mine
What are you waiting for? You could've opened up and asked for more. You could have told me what was on your mind. I knew you were one of a kind. I know what I walked away from. I feel no pain because I'm already numb. Tears stained my face. I knew we had lost pace. Why did it hurt to walk away?. Ever since then I have nothing to say. Some people ask me why. You don't know how much that makes me want to die. I'm not really sure why I"m standing here. Now I start to shed a tear. Why did I leave you behind? You were one of a kind. I miss you as I should. I would redo it if I could. You're happy with her though. I wont let my feelings show. I'll make you think I'm fine. Though I'll always want you to be mine
Holding On
As the music lingers in the air. This cold I can no longer bare. The day I walked up to your door. I was only looking for something more. You let me in without a second thought. Love is what you taught. I thought you how to play from soul. I guess I helped you achieve your goal. You arms were so warm. Now my heart is torn. As I watch you. I finally understand what I already knew. You were there to teach me right from wrong. I haven't seen you in so long. I miss your smile. You know if I could see you I'd walk a mile. Though you're already gone.I'll say this at dawn. I love you and always will my love. I know we are no longer each others dove. I'll hold on to the past. It's all I have to last. With one last strand. It slips through my hand. I've lost all hope in this place. If only I could see your face...
All Alone
How could you lie straight to my face? Now I'm falling behind pace. I trusted you with my life. You stabbed me in the back with a knife. So this is what I get for being your best friend? Now all I can do is try to get my heart to mend. It was broken before. Now it's in little pieces on the shore. I would go collect them, but I don't care. This life is so unfair. I just lost the love of my life. And then you stab me in the back with a knife. I'm beginning to wonder if this is worth all the pain. All I do is sit in the rain. My only true friend is me, myself, and I. I start to cry as you say goodbye. You promised you wouldn't leave me. I knew that promise was never meant to be. As you turn to walk away. I'm screaming because I have something to say. I'm reaching for you hand. You laugh because you don't understand
As you walk out of sight. My whole world goes black;there's no light. You left me here just like everyone before. Because you wanted more. All I wanted was a friend so I wouldn't die. Now I"m left alone in this darkness, all alone to cry
Her
When you look me in the eye. I can't help but cry. You hold me close to you. I know what you can do
But then SHE comes by. You let go and I sigh. You look me in the eye one last time. I look back and notice you don't shine. This girl doesn't help you at all. But until you notice this I'll wait for your call
You
As I look up at the sky. It makes me want to die. I look at you. I know what you can do. You can save me from this pain. Or I will no longer be sane. You can heal this broken heart. I know it's enough to start
Despair
This I must say. It isn't going to be a good day. I hope I don't let you down too much. You lay your hand on my shoulder with a touch. I look you in the eye. As the words flow you start to cry. I don't know what I'm about to say. I knew this was going to be a bad day. When you said friends for life. I was starting to think that I should end mine with a knife. Not because of you. Though you should have knew. As I give you this note. I think I'll go drown in a moat. Or maybe I'll just separate us for now. At the end of this game I'll take a bow. We are no longer best friends anymore. I repeat in my head on the shore. Someone like you doesn't need me. So I'm going to walk away and let you be. Go find someone new. I walk away after saying goodbye to you. You think I wont cry. With every step I take I die. I look back and you're walking away. What more can I say? I'm left alone in the dark with nothing to show. It was my choice to leave this friendship I know. I look back one last time. Then I go up to the clouds as I begin to shine
Bold
And so I stand here. To review my past. And yet it seems real. But this feeling wont last. If I hold you again. Will you realize the fate? If I cry with you again. Will you think it's too late? And if I kiss you once more. Will you love me back? Or will you turn away. And make everything black? If you loved me dearly. If you loved me so. Why can't I see? Why doesn't it show? I know I am young. Immature and naive. But this feeling is not a crush. And somehow I believe. I feel the painful truth. As I let you go. But all I need from you. Is the memories you will know. So now I stand here. Alone and cold. Afraid of life. But from my past, bold
 miroku fan 101 · Mon Mar 24, 2008 @ 06:07pm · 2 Comments |
