"My Suicide"
I'm dieing...
for your touch
I'm dieing...
for you to remember me
I'm dieing...
for your love
I'm praying...
for you to understand
I'm praying...
for you to come back
I'm praying...
for you to heal me
I'm bleeding...
for you could never understand
I'm bleeding...
for you would never come back
I'm bleeding...
for you could never heal me
I'm screaming...
for you will never touch me again
I'm screaming...
for you have forgotten me
I'm screaming...
for you never loved me and you never will
I have died in vain...
I have prayed for a lost cause...
I have bleed in vain...
I have screamed for a lost cause...
Why wont you touch me?
How could you forget me?
Why couldn't you just love me?
How could you not understand me?
Why didn't you come back for me?
How could you never care to heal me?
You wont not touch me...
for I am a lost cause
You forgot me...
for I am never meant to be remember
You wont love me...
for I am nothing to love
You will never understand me...
for I am nothing to even try and understand
You wont come back for me...
for I am nothing to come back for
You cant heal me...
for I am nothing, nothing at all
I want to die...!
I am a lost cause...
for I cry for the grave
Still my soul cries for deliverance
And now all I want returned to me is salvation...
Will I get what I asked for?
Or will I be denied?
For this will be my suicide...
"I love you..."
I feel helpless...
when I hear you crying
that's when my tears start to fall
when I cant make things better
that's when I begin to fall apart
when I see you in so much pain
that's when I cant bare to live anymore
I wish...
I could stop the tears from falling
for then my heart wouldn't break into pieces
I could make everything better
for then I would have a reason to live, to have a life
I could take your pain away and bare it instead
for then my mistakes would never need to be undone
I think back to...
when I was there to wipe away the tears
but that will never happen again
when I knew how to make everything better
but never again can I comfort you
when I took all your pain away
but I cant take anything more from you
I miss...
your voice
and the sweetness of it
your face
and the beauty of it
just you
for you are all i will ever know
Why am I so helpless?
because I don't have you
Why wont any of my wishes come true?
because we were never meant to be
Why cant I stop thinking about you?
because you have crept into my mind
Why do I miss you so damn much?
because you were the only one for me
Cant you see how helpless I am without you?
I need you when I cry
when the tears start to fall
I need you here to make things better
when I'm falling apart
I need you when I'm in pain
when I cant bare to live anymore
Cant you see how I wish for you?
I cant stop anything from falling into pieces
not even my own heart
I cant make anything better
not even my own life
I cant take anything back
not even my own mistakes
Cant you see how much I think about you day and night?
I don't even wipe away my own tears
because I cant wipe away yours
I don't know how to make anything better anymore
because I don't know how to make you better
I don't think I cant take anymore than I already have
because I cant take anything more from you
Cant you see how much I miss you?
I need to hear your voice
and then I can rest in peace
I need to see your angelic face
and then I can close my eyes with ease
I just need you back in my life
and then I wont have to die in vain
I love you...
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"Almost"
How can I miss the taste of your lips?
How can I miss the way your eyes sparkle?
How can I miss that stupid grin of yours?
How can I miss the way your skin feels on mine?
I've never even kissed you...
though I'll admit, I've dreamed about it far too many times
What am I going to do?
I really don't want to wait for you to be mine
I've never seen the way your eyes sparkle...
for I've never looked into you eyes
Whenever I close my eyes I see them sparkle in the moonlight
But I know I'm only imagining it...and that really makes me want to cry
I've never seen that stupid grin of yours...
though I've imagined it time and time again
Why cant I get you out of my head; why do I always want more?
I would die just to see you smile...just once
I've never even held you hand...
once again, I'll admit I've dreamed of things like that far too much
I shouldn't feel like this...and I'll try to stop myself if I can
But just know I'll always long for your touch
As I sit here crying in my room
I'm curled up in a ball...
I want to taste your lips...
I want to see your eyes sparkle in the moonlight...
I want to see that stupid grin of yours light up your face...
I want to feel you gentle touch on my skin...
But most of all I just want you...
And I'm almost sorry I do
"We"
I don't really know you
But I would really love to
We could spend day after day together
I don't think our friendship will end, there will always be more
I wish we could sit under a tree in the grass
We might even exchange a few laughs
And when night comes, we can count the stars
Doesn't matter if we're close or far
No matter where either of us are or where we go
I know you'll always be in my heart, and I'll always be in your heart
Don't try, just go with the flow
We'll meet one day and than we'll never part
You seem to understand what I'm going through
I'm not quite sure what I'd do without you
Always putting a smile on my face
But just know I'm broken like a shattered vase
So hold me close but not too tight
For if you hold on to a butterfly too tightly it dies
And I don't want to lose you, don't want everything to turn blank;white
For if you ever leave, this butterfly will surely cry
I'm going to hold on to you too
Because without you I don't know what would happen to me
Whether you believe it or not, you help me make it through
And I really hope there will always be a "we"
"Through"
I wonder, what would it be like to kiss you?
Would it be a sweet moment that would never fade?
Or would I want to forget about it the minute it ended?
Well, I can only hope all ends well...
I wonder, how would it feel to lay by your side?
Would you wrap me in your arms and never let go?
Or could you just hold my hand?
Either of those would be beyond great
I don't want to hurt you...
I never have and I never will
But will you hurt me?
I hope not, because I don't think I could take it
I love you...
but I'm confused right now
What do you do when your heart says one things but your mind tells you anther?
I may need help to understand my own feelings...
Please, don't give up one me...
For I will never give up on you
I really hope one day we can be
Until than, we'll help each other make it through
"Fear"
As I lay here in my bed
All I can think about is you
Just cant seem to get you out of my head
But in a way, I don't really want to...
As the tears start to fall
I can hear your voice
Somehow you've gotten past all my walls
I fell in love with you, and yes it was by choice
The sound of your voice makes my heart beat faster everytime
When you sing it's like all the angel's in chorus, but your voice is more lovely
Your perfect in every way and just maybe it should be a crime
I promise I'll always feel this way, for you are my light to see
I want to be in your arms
Maybe than I could kiss you
I want to see your smile with all it's charm
Because everything I say and feel is true
But the one I want more than anyone
Is and will always be you dear
For you are my everything; my light and my sun
And one way or anther you always find a way to take away my fear
 miroku fan 101 · Sun Feb 01, 2009 @ 05:11am · 0 Comments |
