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i want to cry ;____; <//3

But then i say to myself, with perfect reason that its not important; its not worth it. I can't help it though... it makes me feel so...angry? jealous? sad? Its a whole bundle of emotions, mixed into one and i bottle them in.

You know the stupid thing about it? it's not serious. What's worse is that its over someone i've never. even. met.

So, I won't cry. I won't get upset. and I won't care anymore.

But that's just on the surface.

It's shoved in my face. Every single ******** day, and i can't tell anyone. Who could i tell? It's not an irl issue, so i won't be confiding in my parents or anyone i know irl, because they don't have any idea who i'd be talking about. I couldn't bring myself to confide in anyone i've met online either. Everyone knows everyone. I'd risk too much to tell. Its not even an option.

It is lame and stupid that i'd get so upset about such a petty issue.. but i can't help it. It hurts so much, and i'm not happy.

I can't carry on doing this anymore. It's tearing me apart.

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