This saturday I'm going to a orchasta competition. Should be fun. We get judged and then we get a rating. 1's the best, 5's the worst. hope we get a 1>< about a week ago i entered one of my poems in a contest and today i figured out i'm a finalist!!!I have to go to this one place to figure out if I won or not.That's this coming Thursday.I hope I win both contests but I won't get my hopes too high. I know there are going to be good people there too so we'll see what happens.This passed Wednesday I have a track met. I saw my ex ,that I still like, there.Anyways, I came 8th in discuss(better then last time) and 7th in long jump.Though the long jump was confusing cause the board didn't end right before the sand pit, it ended and there was still 2 feet of concrete.So i faulted the first few times.But oh well^^My friend that has cancer is doing fine.Not dead yet(he's still his normal self-rude as alwaysXD) I figured out that my ex still likes me and he thinks i'm cute!!!!><That made me SO happy, though I do still like my bf right now. I'm not sure which one to pick, my ex who I've known and loved for years(4) or my bf who I've only known for a year.hmmm.....i have some tough decisions to make....any advice????
here's some poems(or a letterXD)
Letter
Dear Love,
I have a few questions for you.You'll probably think I'm geing clingy but I don't care anymore.Did you ever REALLY love me or did you just tell me all of that stuff cause you felt bad for me?Did you ever REALLY care?Were you ever REALLY my friend?I know you probably don't care about me or what I think, but I'm going to say what's on my mind anyways.I still love you as you've probably guessed.Even though I have a new boyfriend, he doesn't have my heart...you do.I don't care how much you hate me or ignore me.You have my heart for now, though it's broken and torn.I REALLY don't want it back because it would cause too much pain, but I know soonier or later I'll have to take it back.If I ever want to move on that is.For the moment though, I don't want to move on.I'm not sure if you feel the same for me, or if you ever REALLY did, but I still care for you and want to help you.I know you probably don't want my help and that's ok.I wouldn't want my help either, but if you ever need someone to talk to or someone to help you just remember I'm always here for you.I guess you're almost like a brother to me.You've helped me with so many things and asked nothing in return.I've never helpd you, not even once.I'm sorry I haven't been a good friend.That's why I want to help you.To be a better friend for you.You probaby think this whole letter is a bunch of s**t right?So do I, but I only wrote this so you would know I'm here for you.Thanks for reading this even though it's all s**t.
From,
your love
You were
The suns shinging bright
So why does it feel like night?
It's been this way since you left me
I can no longer see
My heart and mind closed
No longer like a rose
People wonder what's going on
They'll figure out too late at dawn
T'll be joining you by that time
Now WE can truely shine
As you hold me in your arms
You have your own charm
Right before we kiss
You're what I miss
I wake up from this dream
We are no longer a team
I reach for the book
But I'm not brave enough to look
You gave this to me
Why did you give me the key?
You could have gave it to her
She would've loved you for sure
My heart has been locked
This put me in shock
I have just figured out that I'm in love
You were always my dove
 miroku fan 101 · Sat Apr 12, 2008 @ 01:09am · 0 Comments |
