Art gave me an assignment for work that I really don't wanna do. I wasn't hired to do internet sales stuff. Lately, they've been making me do stuff on Cars.com and Carspot.com where I have to edit the tags to read differently for the warranties and APR percentages. However, I wasn't hired to do this.
Here's the conflict: what if the people at my new job (I have to apply at Charter Communications yet) decided to make me do new stuff? I can't just complain and say that I can't because you didn't hire me for it. However, Charter specifies what I have to do and probably won't change my objectives unless I get promoted.
Then there's something else going on with me. Lately, I've found that me and Robert aren't fighting and that I don't mind not being around him so much. Is that bad? I mean, I've found that I actually LIKE being apart from him. I like being with him too.
And last night. I had a hard time making out with him. Why? Because I had to force myself (at first) to do anything to him. I think we need to turn off the tv or stop watching a movie in order for me to do anything with him. I get too distracted. I also don't like taking turns teasing each other. I also don't mind not having sex right now. Is that making us grow apart though? I'm so confused.
A part of me wants to know what it's like to be in a different relationship, but then I look at what I have and I know I'm happy. He's my first true love, but I'm so damn curious. I've had numerous dreams about Ed here at EvS and I'm always wondering if he likes me or not (more likely not though). I think I might still have a crush on him... God, why? I think I even still had a crush on Brian at Bublitz's when I was just starting to date Robert.
I don't want to break up. I love him so much that if I did break up with him, I'd be heart broken...
 Earths_Eclipse · Thu Apr 17, 2008 @ 01:38am · 0 Comments |
