Everything is beyond my grasp, I can't unfold it and read it with clarity.
I can't lay out my life and sort these things out. All I see is SCHOOL upfront.
My feelings have been smothered by other things. Maybe thats why I keep putting them off to the side.
But I think I'm threatened by relationships. Since Jana, I'm kind of scared of them.
I'm even more threatened by long-distant relationships.
I cannot set myself up for more disappointment. The yearning for a touch, hug or kiss,
is too much for me. It's overwhelming.
And juggling that and the load of work I have,
I have no such talent. I lost it when he left me all those years ago.
My focus is shifting from one thing to another, I can barely keep my head up straight.
Music, no history! s**t no, phone because he's calling. ********...
So I've finally sorted my priorities, and I guess that it's good
to see them laid out like this.
School, then music. Relationship isn't even a priority anymore.
I can't lay out my life and sort these things out. All I see is SCHOOL upfront.
My feelings have been smothered by other things. Maybe thats why I keep putting them off to the side.
But I think I'm threatened by relationships. Since Jana, I'm kind of scared of them.
I'm even more threatened by long-distant relationships.
I cannot set myself up for more disappointment. The yearning for a touch, hug or kiss,
is too much for me. It's overwhelming.
And juggling that and the load of work I have,
I have no such talent. I lost it when he left me all those years ago.
My focus is shifting from one thing to another, I can barely keep my head up straight.
Music, no history! s**t no, phone because he's calling. ********...
So I've finally sorted my priorities, and I guess that it's good
to see them laid out like this.
School, then music. Relationship isn't even a priority anymore.
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