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I'm not a person that usually rants about their emotions...
But there's one person that can bring it out of me...
My vampire side struggles against my will every day, as soon as I get tired or angry, or just when it feels like it.
He makes it hard for me to want the vampire out, makes it hard for me to want anything other than to please him...
I try to resist the pull of loving him, but I can't help it... there's something about him that makes it so hard to concentrate in class or when I'm doing homework... it's hard for me to concentrate at all... He calms me, makes me feel wanted... the vampire is dormant around him, soothed... There's one thing I just don't know how to do around him... it might be too soon to tell him, I can never find the right time to say it, or I don't know how he will respond...
I want to tell him that I love him...
But how do I do that, when I'm afraid of my own emotions?