I Bid You A Farewell From The Other Side
Only for this reason do I call out to you and you alone.
You're the one that broke me, made me whole again and challenged me to my limits
The idea of being alone seems much too easy, and the idea of being with someone seems to complex to grasp understanding.
I feel the need to open my scars let the blood flow freely and tear at my soul and mind
The bitter feelings of jealousy are all that remain within the containments of this hollow resounding shell.
Escaping the insanity of the demands of the social outrage I seek the refuge I never thought I'd seek again
I seek the one comfort of my first soul shattering devil the one that entered my life and made the lies seem beautiful and harmless
The first
The last
The only
The one
Never again does the world seem the same without your bitter view and morbid jokes of life.
I miss the lies you told and truths that seemed to always be there.
The way your voice swayed with love and compassion for all
The determination of anger residing in your voice in my defense
All that gone
All that was lost
All that can never be regained
So here I sit within my own walls of hell.
Disposable at any fool's hand and destroyed by myself over and over
I call out for your soul through weakened spirit calls but never do they reach you
My fingers itch my blood burns and my soul tears myself in half constantly
I was only ever honest with one soul with one heart that seemed in tune with my own
I was loyal within my own rights and limits of sanity
The loved and the love cannot push the end closer.
In the bitter truth I seek refuge under the guiding wings of a butterfly injured from the beaks of despair.
Through the blood and cries of the poor injured fly I see my own truth.
As sad as it is.
I still love him
I still need him
I still want him
I still wish
I still hope
But none will ever come true like a sweet bed-time fairytale told to little ones of night
Only the morbid hopes in my mind seek to fill out the truth
Truth of only bitter lies and hated beginnings.
The end draws near.
So now I say to you
I bid you a farewell from the other side.
My love
My Light
My Heart
My Joy
My Pride
My Everything.
