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It always starts out good. Or ends up good. Or is never good at all.

That's my definition for the days lately. Can't at least one day be nice? The ENTIRE time?

I haven't had one of those days in ages... I miss those days.

And I'm not even sure which is better anymore; school or home.

At school, the bad part is... well, learning and boredom. The good part is the whole friends thing. But sometimes the friends can ruin your day, or lack of. My closest friend is only in one of my classes. The others just...... I don't know, I just don't feel as great around them.

At home, good part, is well, of course, family and no school. The bad part is that my parents are usually never home. I don't mind that really that much anymore. But whenever I do the smallest thing, the rest of my family COMPLETELY OVERREACTS.

It's not even funny! Like, they'll get all "OMG WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?!1?!11!!111!!!" for no good reason, thus ruining my good day or making my day worse.

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I'm not sure whether life's simply living, laughing, and loving, like I'd want to think of. Or, if it's just ruined ever since the day I can't even mention in my house without them OVER REACTING.

I'm the only one in my house that can understand myself. I used to be able to talk about my feelings. But, I can't do that anymore.

I just wish I knew which part of my life to look forward to and if it's all worth it in the end.