I feel like crap. I miss James terribly. I don't know how this long distance thing is going to work. I know i want him and no one else, but i want him HERE. When I have an issue to want him to be here to help me take care of it. I need to cry on him, i need to hold him... i need his warmth. It just really hit me right now... I am sitting here crying because i just want to hear his voice so bad but he is busy. He seems like he always has something going on. I wish i had something to get my mind off of this. I have like... 2 friends... and they are all busy when i am free and free when i work. -_-;
I need to get out, do something... but everything i see reminds me of him! This is sickening. I am sick of feeling that lump in the back of my throat... the one you get when you are trying to keep from crying...
I just want it to go away...
Just one more thing to show how much god hates me.
Yes, here Dryden... here is your soul mate... but i am going to put him on THIS end of florida! Yes... yes... work for it... jump.... jump!
******** it. -_-;
so... on another religious note...apparently there is the "healer" somewhere in like... north carolina or something. My aunt told us about him. I am curious if he could "fix" my dad. His leg has been really bad lately and it is making him really sick. I hate to see my dad sick. >.<
Oh well.
I am rambling... I think i need to eat something... The room is spinning. -_-; goodnight all.
~Dryden
