I was so excited to see Robert yesterday after he got back from Minong, then last night, after we'd spent some alone time together, he started getting mad at me because his dad was getting mad at him. I know that I tend to start fights, but now that I've vowed to try my hardest and be calm and mature, he's turning around and trying to pick a fight.
Ok, maybe he wasn't trying to pick a fight, but he wasn't being very nice last night either. He said that I don't listen very well, then admitted that he doesn't either, and that we both need to work on it.
Now that I'm writing this out, it wasn't that bad... I got it! Every time we start to argue, I need to write it down (or type... hmmm) and make sure that I look at both perspectives and not just my own. There have been times where I've written my feelings down and only written in my defense. When I do it both ways, I see my errors and his and then I can move on or we can talk it out. We will discuss this tonight because our time apart did help.
I don't feel so needy when it comes to him now. I know that I can go home and enjoy a quiet evening to myself if he has plans to do something else. I also realized that going into his house when he isn't there isn't as awkward as I made it out to be. I think I love him more than ever now that I don't feel like I constantly need to see him. I know now that when I go to Lacrosse for 7 weeks that even though it'll be hard, I can make it.
Hey, I think all of the excess hormones from the birth control pills have left my system... I'm thinking more clearly than I have for the past year!
 Earths_Eclipse · Sat Jun 14, 2008 @ 04:11pm · 0 Comments |
