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Ever had one of those days where it feels like everything is conspiring against you?
I feel like that today. Even the things I get in my email seem to point out things that aren't even funny. my chinese horoscope said it was gonna be a bad day for me. bad at work unless I worked extra hard and teamed up with others, and that in my romance life, there'd be more downs than ups, and I'd be in for surprises I didn't want. and even some of those "Is he or she the one for you? Take this quiz to find out if you loved one is your soul mate". I'm still not sure if after last night, I made a fool of myself or not, but I still feel really weak inside and I haven't even felt like getting out of bed. I really, really had to push myself. it wasn't so much that I was tired, I couldn't even sleep, my stomach was upset, and I just couldn't. I mostly laid there and squeezed my eyes shut, and thought of everything I could. I have no idea what to do or think right now. I just feel a little useless I guess. I haven't been much use to anyone, and I feel like I haven't made anyone but myself important, and that really hurts. I want to listen for once. and make others feel better, and learn things. I just want to be a better person and be less closed off....I wonder why it feels so strange.