Ok, so Robert told me the other night that he wants to be a police officer. My reaction to that wasn't very nice. I told him no, and then I got pissy about it.
While it's true that it is ultimately his decision, I feel that him becoming a police officer would harm our relationship. The main reason: we would no longer be equals. He would hold a position of authority over me, and being with someone who legally has authority over me, more than a parent has over a child, would make me feel like I was a child. Being equals has always been a strength in our relationship. We see each other as equals, helping each other out when needed and offering comfort. While he may still see me as an equal as a police officer, that mutual feeling will be gone for me. Knowing that he has authority over me, even when he isn't on duty, would be too much for me to handle. And he doesn't understand it.
I told him that I don't want him to be an officer because I would be afraid for his safety. That part is also true. If a situation arises where he's needed to take someone down or something like that, he would be putting himself at risk. Every time he would walk out the door, I would wonder and worry if he's going to come home alright.
I'm really lost over this...
 Earths_Eclipse · Fri Jun 27, 2008 @ 02:45am · 0 Comments |
