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epilogue

to say something about my life. . .well it all started a whle ago so i'll skip this part. when i was small i thought every living person is nice and kind. that was i was somehow isolated from tha dark world of the ones who were hating everyone. . .that until i became 11. after i saw how people were sufferin and the others weren't doing anything the way i was thinking has changed. the world full of peace i was seeing was destroyed. instead of it a new world appeared: a world led by darkness where everyone fights for its own survival. killing for a living. . .just like animals, but they aren't animals because that would be a disgrace to every living animal. they are just monsters led by their greed. if i could have the power to do it i would kill every one of them. . .but then i am thinking that i would have to kill almost everyone from this world. . .so it would be useless. as for me i will just continue to live in this world. . .trying to survive. . .but not killing. even if they are destroying everyone they are humans, living beings ; and as every living being must have an opportunity to live and die when their time has come. . . althoung i have my life in front of me i already think about my death. . .but i do not think of death as something horrifying, i think of it as an event that will end my existance on this world. . .even if i die everyone will go forward and eventually will forget about me. . . but that's what i really want: after death noone should remember me anymore. i know i will go to hell after i die but this can't be changed and even if i go to hell i will still be happy because i ahve no big regret in my life :'-)