too tired to say anything with any real feeling.... i was up all night... i sat through class after class.... my first 2 classes... im all alone.... my third... i actually get to hang with friends... the first 3 are all ones that require a TON OF THINKING.... fourth period i have some friends... but we're all scattered... and the seating is gonna be like that all year.... fifth i have english with ben... whom i dont know much about so its kinda like carrying on a conversation with a stranger.... except that i know hes good at computer science... plus he sits at the front of the last row... and im in the very back of the last row... in the corner farthest from the door.... sixth i have latin... i know one person... but i dont know even enough about them to remember their name .... plus we're separated.... and finally seventh... i know one girl from my "bro" he was giving her lessons on guitar and he was temporarily a part of their band... plus she was in v's art class... and whitney knows her to i think... lisa kramer... but i dont know really anything more than what iv been told about her... and guess what....WE'RE SEPARATED.... i feel so lonely.... i had to sit through the same teacher's lecture twice too... she didnt change much about it either... omg today was so boring... but i couldnt sleep cuz teachers get pissed... i think all my teachers are probably either a** HOLES or BITCHES or just no fun.... it sucks.... plus most of my classes have a lot more work than i thought they would(though i only have a little bit of math to do... and just gathering supplies)... but this school year... i already feel like im loaded down...... plus im soooo lonely.... o and i finally found my locker section... the hallway is way too crowded.... my locker is on the bottom, below geoff's and beside the same b*****d as last year.... plus, i dont get the normal type lockers... NOOOOOoooOOOOoooo... they make it so i hafta have one of those weird locks that actually has to be pulled off and put back on... and i cant even get it to open so i can put it on my locker!!!! .... LIFE SUCKS.... THIS SCHOOL SUCKS.... THIS SCHOOL YEAR SUCKS.... EVERYTHING SUCKS.... I JUST WANT TO CURL UP IN MY ROOM AND LIVE ON MY COMPUTER.... o and everytime that someone is on that i really want to talk to.... I MISS THEM.... o and i have lunch with the ben person, the girl in my latin class who i cant remember her name, gna(sp?_?) *dont know any of these people well*... all of my friends are in lunch D.... i have B.... so we never see each other.... plus i have another ortho opointment.... which i woulnt mind sooo much if it didnt take place during lunch.... not that i get to eat at lunch anyways... but i mean... im just worried ill end up tardy and crap and errr.... i will... cuz its scheduled for 11:30... lunch ends at 11:46.... i wouldnt mind missing school if they didnt make it impossible and so awkward to make up stuff from being absent.... im really tired but i cant sleep... iv got math hw.... iv done most of it... but my brain wont work due to sleep deprevation.... plus im feeling really depressed right now... and angry... and lonely.... and stressed.... and whatever bad mood you can think of, im probably feeling it right now.... o and i need to sign up for the sat or whatever it is... and i need to check out after school stuffs.... and omg.... i am just sooooo not happy right now... o and i missed a whole bunch of shows on anime on demand.... and grrrrr..... i am just not happy.... and im very tired... plus i sat in that school freezing my a** off all day, and now everything feels way too hot.... and i just want to sleep... i havent eaten anything all day... so i need to cook something and eat tho im not hungry.... all iv had today is a chocolate milkshake....
ok well.... i need people to talk to me.... even complete strangers would be nice... ya know, just help me relax or something... i also want to read more vampire stories online... but the tired makes my eyes sting and i cant concentrate anyways... plus iv been feeling kinda sick all day... first it was the normal queeziness that i usually get at the beginning of the year... (mixed with a case of slap happy) o and today i ran up and hugged v, you, her, w/e... so out of character for me.... but ya know.... iv been upset lately and i was just soo glad to see her, you, v, w/e... yeah.... o and then i was getting really stiff (my back and shoulders and neck...) cuz of how cold it was and the fact that none of the seats have good back support or anything and i spent all day hunched over and clenching from cold and tired...and whatever... then i ended up with a headache... and bla bla bla.... dammit i hate life.... i hate school.... i almost wish i were dead.... anyways.... i g2g... sleep deprevation is getting mad at me for staying here typing for too long... sooo ttyl.... and you all better be on and talking to me got it!!!!????!!!!???? OF COURSE YOU DO!!.... so anyways.... bai bai until later.... crying crying stare stare xp xp domokun domokun stressed stressed gonk gonk gonk gonk gonk scream scream scream scream eek eek talk2hand talk2hand ninja ninja cry cry evil evil mad mad confused confused sad sad neutral neutral
Unni Ineo · Fri Aug 26, 2005 @ 12:46am · 3 Comments |