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Confused!!!
Ok waaaaay past confused, (hmm that's familiar... maybe it's a turn around on Sonic's waaaay past cool)....
Any back on track, what do you do when you have an ex-boyfriend that you haven't talked to in two + years cause he was a total jerk suddenly IMs you?
Long story short, he kept breaking up and getting back together after the third time i said no more. He tried billions of times to change my mind and I had to get stern and yell that i didn't love him. He got mad and said some things i don't even want to repeat. And just left.
So now he IMs me like he doesn't know me and of course why would i want to talk to him for treating me like crap, i shoot back why didn't you delete me. I should have just acted like someone else. I had a feeling that he knew my SN. rolleyes stare Still he comes and apologizes but says something that i just gag over now. He wants me and misses me and has dreams about me... and.... heh i'll just leave it there to your imagination! Still what the heck? I mean he did apologize. I'm happy for that, still I hate him and don't want him. But the love thing. I don't have any feelings for him. Maybe cause I had jerks all my life or stupid dumb relationships that the guys were idiots. I'd like to meet one that is nice, funny, a little bit of a bad boy and can put up with me and my family. Is that a tall order?
AHHH I just wanna crash and burn, wait i did... still i'm not sure about getting on messenger anymore. I might just make a whole nother email for my friends. oh wait the only people that contact me in my email... ooh a small ground of people... hmmm wooow not a lot.... i'll tell them to call me instead ^^
(oh yeah, I'm not updating my journal as much on Deviantart as much, maybe because I hardly have time now. I have the classes passing me out lots of work and this weather, either it's so hot that the computer can't bare to work or it's thunderstorming.... go figure...)
Mood: Very confused and don't know what to do.
Listening To: Angel of Darkness, Crash, Be Like That, Enjoy the Silence (both depache mode and linkin park mixes), Sandstorm, and It's My Life (techno version)
Reading: Blood Moons
Watching: Cartoons
Playing: DMC3
Eating: Mac & Cheese
Drinking: Coke
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