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Things havent been going very well for me latley, and I feel so horrible.....it started when my friend Abby left. Ive been kicked around so much the past few weeks ........Theres a sharp pain that shoots through my heart everytime I think about whats happend....I feel as though its my fault.....im to blame for everything.....




"Mistakes"

The mistakes slice through my heart, witch has now turned to ash and blown away as I have collapsed, to the ground.......

All the sorrow ive felt....all the things ive seen.........all the worthless tears ive shed.....all these useless thoughts that have enterd my mind......all the rain drops that have ran through my vains.....

I wonder what its like to feel the warmth of the sunlight,because Ive been crying in the dark for so many years that I question in my life.....

You dont know how easy it is to cok a gun and pull a trigger.....
You dont know how easy it is to make me cry......
You dont know how easy it is to control me.....
You dont know how easy it is to steal my heart........
How easy it is to take my heart,hopes,and dreams and brake them all!

For some reason I feel as though no one wants me here.......I feel you Laughat me,lookdown on me, and walk around on me......

Through it all Ive made mistakes, I stumbled, I shutterd, I trembeled,and I fell,and some how I found a way to make it through.....crawling....barley holding on......

All the blood ive shed.....

Like black oil on the ocean.......the darkness is creeping ever so quite and its consuming me.....

The light is fading in the dstance and I fear I will be shrouded in darkness forever.....

Ive sacrificed so much to try to be loved, so much to try to be happy!!!!!But doing that was only wasted time it was a mistake its self!!!

They all hate me with great intenseity!They mock me till I cry and shiver.......and are alone !!!!!

An.....and......they say I.....myself am a Mistake.......