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i just got back from my first day on the job.
it was fun, and i got payed.....but im still depressed.
i guess....its just i miss my friends.....i mean the classic ones.
tia and i are almost always fighting
stephen refuses to talk to me and spends all his time with her
sara and i had a nuculer fall out and we'er not friends
sarah never liked me
nick....well we all know about nick
(ok sarah and nick were never classic friends but i still lost them)
the worst part is....i really did think we were all friends. i know tia is my friend and i haven't lost her but still... and i know i have other friends but i still miss the ones ive lost. sara became too much for me to handle. and i think everyone knows the one im most upset about losing. stephen and i used to be so close and he used to call constently. now i ask him to call and he gets annoyed. or i call and he picks up the phone like "what do you want?" and "can i help you?" in a really annoyed tone. he hates talking to me and says im annoying. i don't try to be annoying. i...i just want to talk to one of my best friends again. is that really so much to ask?...great now im crying. he used to care when i cried now it just makes me more annoying to him. i try leaving him alone ill do it for weeks and he'll pick up the phone, we'll have a nice conversation i think everythings ok. i call the next day and hes back to being mean. i...wish there was something i could do to where he didn't hate me so much. hell i don't even know what i did to make him hate me in the first place......why won't he just tell me that one sentence? i know hes thinking it.