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well here I am, once again updating this thing for a reason unknown to me. for those of you who read this (if I have any readers), thank you for not shooting yourselves from the lack of boredom my journal has possibly created in your lives xd anyways on to updated.

I got back from a leadership camp last Saturday. I'd been at that camp for a week. honestly, it was probably the best week I've had all of 2008 and it will probably stay that way. I loved that camp. it's part of a 2 year program that I can't (and would never want to) get out of. I made many friends (at least 16 to be exact) and I shared many new experiences with them all. I opened up over that week and I think I've finally been able to show the real me. for those of you who don't like the new me (if you could even notice it), deal with it stare I didn't ask for your opinion and I don't see why I should care for it. this is the real me. if you miss the old me and refuse to accept this one as one of your friends, then leave. I don't need you here to hold me back. I stand by what I just said. to those of you reading this and thinking that now I'm just being a jerk and now you really hate the new me, all I can say is this. I'm sorry. I made many new friends and I did something every second of every day for a week with no free time. now, I have all the freetime in the world and I have no one to share it with. I am bored out of my mind and now the less shy me is irritated because I have nothing to do and I'm honestly very lonely. "Forgive me, my weakness, but I don't know why. Without you it's hard to survive." fear the lyrics of Cascada's "Everytime We Touch". anyways back to updating. I only have one of thing to say.

on Saturday, the last day of my beloved camp, I feel down some stairs. it was a long fall and it wasn't a major fall, but I hurt my left ankle. this accident occured when I was too excited about having one of my favorite hats returned to me. it had been missing for the past 2 days and then it was back (horribly mangled) but back all the same. I felt so happy, I accidently skipped a step, almost missing 2. to keep myself from falling completely (for I felt my balance fading) I did something. it ended up hurting my ankle. now I have a freakish boot on my foot. it doesn't hurt, but it's very uncomfortable.

that's the end of my updating. sorry to all those I angered. I am angered too and now I am even more angry, but now at myself. you can all hit me later. I'll probably deserve it even more then. bye!