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This is for one person.

You are the one that i trust,
When you leave, so does my joy, but not my love,
When I see you, my heart runs as fast as i run to you,
When i speak to you, i'm the happyest ive ever been,
And when i met you for the first time, i held down my head,
for one simple reason, i never felt good enough,
But now im yours and you are mine, and no longer does my head hang,
For you are the one, that i trust and i love.

i know it dosnt rhyme, but it gets my feelings across, before i met the person who inspired this(yes, i made this starting when i met the person, and now ive finished it) this was the poem for my feelings before.

I will never stop,
I feel withered and old, i feel angry and cold,
I taste the bitterness of both blame, and defeat,
I cannot touch the light ahead, because if there is one,
I cannot see it, for me, there is no light ahead
I smell the fear that others have of me,
They fear me, hate me despise me, they wish me no less than dead,
No matter who i meet, i cannot trust, i cannot love, looking for the one forever,
Who is she?, where is she?, or rather... Is she?,
Is she alive?
Does she exist?
Did she exist?
the answer to all, is no. i will not know trust, i will not know love, for i am the one, that god does not hear. I am the one, that walks a lonely path, i will help you, but i will not trust you, with even such a small task as walking towards me, and i will not love you, no matter how hard i try, all because you will not trust, and will not love, me, i am a demon, i am an angel, i am a life saver, i am a life taker, i do not hope for love or trust, i taste the bitter taste of dis-trust, and i feel a pain in my chest, such a familiar pain, the pain, of not being loved, the pain, of others hate, and pity, i dont want your pity, i dont want your false love, i helped you i loved you, you gave me pity, so you made me feel happy, i thought i could touch the light, but just when i saw it you all would take it away, so i curse you i despise you, and i return your hatered, i return your wish of death, and i will make sure, that you are the first of us, to die, i will not love, i will not trust, but for your sake, i will fake them, i will fake emotions, all i have left are anger, hatred, and sadness, but my sadness leads to anger and my anger grows to hate, so all i have left is to hate, i am that single emotion, that is why, you despise me, why you distrust me, why you detest me, you will one day see, why i am hate, i am hatred, in a different name, in a guise, i will eat but not sleep, i will fake it around you to see what you think of me, so i hear you there despising me, detesting me, loathing me, and from this i become stronger, faster, better, one day, i shall destroy all of you, by leaving this human body, and living and growing, in each one of you, untill you kill one another, and then i shall find the peace in death, that you all kept from me in life. I am hatered incarnate, fear me, hate me, loath me, despise me, for all that do each day i become stronger, faster, better, and i will destroy you with myself, when only one of you is left, you shall be sad, and kill yourself, i am here, to bring man to it's end, to bring you all to your knees, i will fight, i will hate, i will kill. and i will grow. I feel withered, and old, i am hatred, i have lived too long to remember, so i am old, i will destroy you, not in my life but in my human bodys death you will set me free from my prison. I will never stop.