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I was born and died on the darkest day of the world. the day that Jesus Christ died. I was there on the day he was crucified and hanged. On the day he died I was in the church praying for my forgiveness of what we had done. I died in the church when he died for it had fallen upon me. I wasn't there when he rose from the earth to free the people from there sins. For I was with the others that day, with the ones that crucified him, in hell. Though I died in the church I was there for one miracle the merical of in water for I was the one whom stabbed him in the side right beneath the ribs. On the cross the words it is finished the church crumbled and fell leaving me .
Upon this day I fell down to hell for my sins for God gave no forgiveness for the crucifixion of his son. This place was not like what most humans think of it was different. There were no flames no cape wearing s no pool of , there was only a gate, statues, a grave yard, and a shack. When you went into the shack there is a long hall filled with rooms of screams. You could feel everybody’s pain and grief. When Jesus came down with me on this day he spoke words of parables and phrases and riddles. Few believed in his words and teachings so they went up to the heavens were the city is gold and silver. For some reason I was not allowed to go no mater how hard I tried to believe I was never allowed up no mater how hard I believed no mater how hard I loved or begged nothing would allow me to rise for my crime was worse than any I knew.
For many years I was there being d till I died again then revived and the cycle kept going and going. After a many of years of pure I was forced to see the greatest evil the world has known. He was there in the beginning and will be till the end. It as you should know it is not a sight you should forget, it is a faun like creature half man half goat. It stood on its legs that were hard to see for they were black and his top half of this creature was a It wore a cloak of leather made of human skin and bones. It asked me “Why do you not scream in pain or beg for forgiveness, why do you not wish for mersey?” It was a question I have thought of but never figured out it did seem that I felt no pain over the years. So I answered him with an answer that was faint in my head “Why do you feel fear of you not understanding my ways, are you so used to pain and suffering of all but not of one that has nothing to lose?”
With this it sent me away to go into a chamber of spikes of poison, snakes of pain, and scorpions to sting me for rest of time. After 24 or so years of not feeling pain or suffering form the swift version of the apocalypse a merical happened. The thing I looked to for 1.624 years, in hell, a merical happened Jesus came down once more and took those that believed in him truly in there harts and not by there actions strait to heaven. Finally I was allowed to go up with him. Then I saw every soul passing mine even though the firs time in my life I could see heaven I couldn’t go. See when I started to leave hell I was grasped by the s hand along with God’s caused me to go into purgatory. There was no up no down no side to side no people no life just plain darkness. At this moment I wished I was back in hell for this was much worse for once in many many years I started to cry. I was in this place for many years before my merical happened.
God and the finally came to me and gave me a proposition. This proposition was for a job to work for both of them. This job is for me to kill s, fallen angels, vampires that have lost there place, werewolves, evil spirits, and all things that are in the dark. I would have powers from both of them fire, water, wind from God, and from the I was given speed, strength, wings, and an enchanted sword that would never break and only appear upon my calling its name is Balisarda. Though with these powers only one woman outside of my family would love me for what I am other than that no one would love me though I would love them. I would have friend but they would be few and I would live longer and those that were not would try to destroy my life by any means.
As a fool I had accepted my job without relising how harsh I would live out my life. I would be called many names Jason after the Greek warrior, Desmon for I will become your destiny, the by those whom reject my because of my acts, and Soulstis for if you are not careful I might just have to clame your soul for it is evil. I was now born through a womb on the new millennium of the 1990s were all hell was breaking loose. This is the beginning of my long a** tail of love, , friendship, pain, and life for it is a cruel world and I have just arrived as a baby.