I don't get it! I don't get it! I don't get it! I want to cry. I want to rip my hair out. I want to just let all the feeling I have go away. because I have hope. I have hope in things that I will never get back. and normaly hope is the best thing that you can have. but now the hope that I will get back with a loved one is hurting me. I want this hope to go away so I can stop feeling these feelings of guilt and pain. and I want to get back. but I don't know what to do. I don't want you to leave him just for me. no that would be wrong of me to ask such a thing. but i'm torn now. and my feelings are just stuck in me. and as great as it is to be hopeful in my romantic fanticy of love and happyness, it is a future that probably wont happen. but it feels good to hope for the best. but not when the best wont happen. and no matter how sorry I am. how much I want it. it wasn't meant for me. my happyness just isn't going to happen. so I need to move on. but I find it hard to. because these feelings keep coming back. no matter how hard I try to be strong. I always end in myssery. I need to move but... I can't. I'm sorry for all I have done to all. so I will just stop. stop everything. because apperently I just cause more pain than happiness.
Kalsbrad · Fri Sep 05, 2008 @ 11:00pm · 1 Comments |