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Oriel was a strange boy I had met when I was very young. He was truly my first friend. In fact...our meeting was as he told me 'fate'. My mother was a painter and my father was a rancher. Yep, chickens, cows, pigs, sheep...you name it. But his favorite...and mine were the horses. I remember always riding them until I was dragged off to bed or school. But my with my mother constantly away for work...my father became an alcoholic and marks would constantly appear on my body. Still though I would go to school, smile and act as though nothing was happening. Because in my mind...nothing was really happening. But one day while I was riding one of the horses, a boy was rigt outside the gate, staring me down. I was still very small but it bothered me that he was there. "Hello?" I asked. "Ah! Is this the Darlight ranch?" he asked. I nodded,"Yes..why? Are you another Jehovah's Witness?" I asked, ready to slam the wall in his face. "No...I don't even know what that is...but you're Angel right?" "Y-yes...why?" I had never seen this boy at school nor anywhere else. But nobody ever asked for me unless it was the teacher. Or if Father wanted to beat me. "I heard about you from Dolly." he said. I rolled my eyes. At the time I couldn't stand Dolly...she was always in my business and could never seem to shut her mouth, even for a second. "Listen...I don't know you so-" "Easy sister. I'm just like you." I wanted to puke, just like me? What a load. "I don't have a family either.." he whispered. I blinked,"I have a family." "Do they love you?" "Of course they do! Who're you to question that!?" I barked. He reached through the fence and grabbed my hand,"Please...let me just talk to you...just for a second. We can meet at my secret place!" he said happily. I met Oriel at a small shack on the prarie hill and sat in my white dress. "How do you know Dolly? She's like the most popular girl in school..how would she know some homeless kid?" I asked. "Er...well...it's complicated. But..she tells me you don't like letting people in." "Yea...and? I'm 6 years old...what does it matter?" "Hm...nothing I think. If that's what you want~" Oriel was so strange...I'd never met anything like him. So I kept hanging out with the strange little blonde homeless boy day after day. I would always be smiling with him though, never once was I upset...and if I was, he'd be the one to cheer me up. It wasn't until I turned 12 did my parents actually start caring about what I was doing in my life. "Angel...you're no longer allowed to hang out with that boy." said Father. "What?! Why can't I hang out with Oriel?" "Because...that' our rule!" yelled Mother. I was so angry I too started yelling,"This is the first time you actually start caring and now you start bossing me around?! Go to hell and burn!" I screamed. I ran outside and took one of the horses and rode miles away. I knocked on Dolly's door and explained my situation. "That's...weird..I don't see why they-" "They've never cared about anything I did in my entire life and now they suddenly feel like doing whatever they want?! Over my dead body!!" I hissed. Oriel was the light of my life....my first true best friend; to this day I wondered why they'd wanted my separate from him. So...I ran off. I ran off to New York and...I guess the rest is history. Dolly ended up worrying for me so of course she had to follow but....I didn't want her help. I was the one who had been constricted.

"So...Orie, feel like telling me why?" "Why what?" he asked with a smile. I gritted my teeth,"Why the hell the wanted me far away from you!" "Angel...why does it matter?" he asked,"It happened so many years ago...I'm surprised you still even remem-" I smacked him across the face; I was shaking now. "Because of you....It was because of you that I moved to that s**t hole!! It was because of you that I became a street girl. Oriel...I hated every last moment of that place. In fact...I hated it so much I killed myself!" I yelled. He still stood motionless,"But...Did I not make you stronger? Did I not make you realize that what your father was doing was bad?" "W-What?!" "Could you imagine if we had not met Angel? Oh what a strange robotic girl you'd be....and then...you never would've met any of those lovely friends....or that sweet boy that cares for you so~" I smacked him across the face and kept punching. I'm no one's object anymore! I'm not my father's object...I'm not that damn club's object...I'm not Sephirio's object...and I definitely am not your either!!! Oriel...you were the person I trusted...looked up to...h-h-how could you just practically send me away to that place like it was nothing?! Weren't you sad I left? D-Did you even miss me for a second?" I asked, hoping, praying that he'd be able to answer. I was shaking and crying now, he lifted my chin and smiled,"Heh...I guess you figured it out by now huh?" "W-What?" "I'm a sadist silly...everyone and everything on this God forsaken universe is my object." I shook my head,"No...you aren't Oriel...you're....you're not...." "Poor, poor thing...but that's what you get for getting attached to a devil eh? Hm, looks like your boyfriend is here...I'll leave you alone for now...I think I've broken you enough~" he sang, disappearing into the shadows. I couldn't understand a droplet of what had happened, so when Ishio finally did come...I was on my knees. I was shivering,"Why....why...why?" I kept asking. Ishio took me into his arms and in a low voice asked me what was going on. So I explained...bit by bit.

"Oriel was a close friend of mine when we were younger...in a way...he saved me from my father's beatings." "You were beat?!" I nodded in his chest,"I had grown so attached to him over the years...he wanted only to listen and care....for nothing. I remember never being able to understand why he wanted to be my friend...but...Suddenly my parents wanted nothing to do with him and me being together...they were setting the harshest rules....they hadn't cared about anything I did but now they wanted to take the most precious thing from my heart? I ran away from them because of that...But I never really understood what was really going on...but..." I pushed myself further and further into his chest,"He was nothing more than a liar...just using me for his own enjoyment...." "You came here then to understand?" Ishio asked. I looked up at him and nodded,"Still....even now...I have no idea what I'm crying for..." He lightly stroked my blonde hair and gave me a gentle, caring smile...the same kind Oriel would give me. "It'll be okay...I promise." I layed back into his chest and gave a sigh,"Hey Ishi?" I asked. "Hm? What's up?" "Y-Y-You aren't my friend because...you know...you want to torture me right?" "Angel...I want to be your friend...if I didn't...I probably wouldn't be in this situation right?" "Y-Yea..." Over the next days at the magical school my thoughts became consumed by Oriel's betrayal. I had a horrible complex against liars....and especially ones that lied to me for their own enjoyment. Even the thought of Oriel made my blood boil. "Is she okay?" Trent asked. Ishio grabbed my hand and gripped on tight,"Betrayal is a rough thing...eh?"


Alright...that still might not make sense but...It will alter just bare with it I guess...for some reason in a way it doesn't even make sense and my mind is like swirling with ideas and stuff...yea...I think I'm going to lay off this one for a few days to let my brain catch up with the rest of me...