Ok a few days ago an over whelming saddness overcame me from me friends moving. Here are two poems I wrote from the grief, please comment and rate.
Crazy
Maybe, we are both crazy,
Or maybe, everyone else is.
You think I don’t love you anymore, though it’s just the same,
The same it has always been but just in other ways.
You say that I’m ignoring you but that’s not really the truth,
Really I’m just a big mouth that doesn’t know how to shut her mouth.
Being apart was never this hard.
Being apart didn’t hurt so badly when you were in the same town with me,
A phone call away to make weekend plans, now just a phone call with no plans at all.
Before when it was “no” you would still be there next weekend, this time “no” meant “goodbye”.
It hurts so much more when you can’t come over and comfort me when something happens.
Though it may seem like I’m together, I’m really not,
Mixed and confused, forgetting where I’m at.
Years of practice and being and actress help somewhere it seems,
Seems that I, I can’t find a way,
To escape the pain, by running away.
It’s not what you would want me to do, but it almost seems I must.
To follow in your footsteps of your party, and go live under a rock.
Though it may seem like I’m together, I’m really not,
Everyday cracking ever so much more without you to feel in those cracks,
Trying to pick up the pieces that fall and never being able to get them all,
Leaving pieces of me where ever I go.
Falling deeper in to the hole.
I miss the times we had, when we were being idiots,
Goofing off and having fun, really enjoying life.
But all that changed with one simple yes,
You off and moving, leaving me behind in the dust.
We are not the same as when we started,
We have grown closer together, and at the same time we have grown apart.
I wish there was some way I could fix this but there is only one way,
One simple “no” and then one simple “yes”,
You’re back in your old nest.
Just the same as it was before,
Everything different, everything the same.
Come back and my heart might stop breaking,
Pick up the pieces, and fill in the cracks.
So that I will no longer break, but be whole once more.
Whole until, some boy comes along, takes my heart and then drops it.
Maybe, just maybe, I’m crazy for what I’m about to do, but trusting you,
I give my heart to you, my dearest friend, in hopes of preserving it.
Please.
Please, don’t break it.
Alone
I am alone, mentally and somewhat physically,
Alone, so much of the point of depression,
Alone, with no way out,
Alone, with no one to help,
Alone, can’t see the light as I become swallowed by the darkness,
Alone, with all I could ever want,
Except you.
You are just like me, alone,
Hurting, just like me, alone,
Dying just like me, alone,
Wanting the one thing you can’t have,
Me.
Together we make a whole,
But not when were apart.
Twins should not be apart,
Be alone, trying to make it by.
Alone is the worst kind of hurt.
We are alone.
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