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	A rant in some fashion
	A rant in some fashion


I'm so bored right now... Robert's Grandma was missing since 8 am yesterday, but she was found today. Turns out she went to visit someone after surgery and didn't tell anyone in the family. She has dementia and gets really angry at Grandpa Leeman sometimes because she believes that he's cheating on her. He isn't, but she gets that way every once in a while, so the family was concerned for her. Thank God she's ok. Steph kind of pissed me off on Saturday. Now, I'm not mad anymore, but I still feel a little hurt. We had a spur of the moment idea to all go up to Fondy and hang with Kel for a while. Well, Kel and I did... anyway, we got bored up in Target, so we took Kel to my boyfriend's house to play the Wii. We told Nicky and Steph that we were going there, and Nicky said that they'd be there after getting something to eat (at least that's what Robert said since he answered). It got to be around 10:30 and I figured they weren't coming out anymore. We'd been waiting for them for 2 hours or so and I figured they'd decided not to come out. We're getting ready to take Kel home when Nicky calls to say that they're on their way. I tell her that we're taking Kel home soon, so don't bother. When I asked her what happened, she said that Steph had wanted to see Zach. That sort of made me think, "Wow, she ditched us." Then Nicky gave the phone to Steph and Steph got defensive and said I had done the same thing to her numerous times. True, I had ended up being late for some things, but I had never made plans to see my friends and then turned around the same night and gone to see Robert. I did ditch them one time. That one time was when Robert's Dad was showing signs of having a heart attack and Robert needed me to be with him when we took him to the hospital. I know that Steph loves Zach and that she doesn't get to see him a lot because of the distance, school, and work. She always says that we need to get together more, and when I made that effort on Saturday, she decided to go and see Zach. I know, I sound whiney and like a child, but I've never done anything like that. I know that it was spur of the moment, but so was going up to Fond du Lac to see her boyfriend. And Steph, I know you're going to end up reading this one way or another. I'm apologizing now for getting mad over the phone, but not for this entry. I write how I feel in my journal, and that's the simple truth. I know I've ditched you guys once before and been late multiple times, but when you say, "Now you know I how we felt," that makes me think you're only doing this to get revenge on me. You shouldn't be doing stuff like this just because I did. If it had been the other way around, I'd try my hardest to NOT do what I did. Steph, you're probably mad at me right now for not telling you this right away, but I only talk when I'm ready to. I'm done now, and you'll probably get in touch with me in some way soon. I'll talk to you then. Earths_Eclipse · Tue Sep 23, 2008 @ 02:27am · 1 Comments


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	I'm not entirely mad. I'm sorry for getting defensive, but I didn't realize Nicky talked to Robert when we first called. I told Nick to tell you guys what was going down but apparently she got confused. And to be completely honest, I did not do that for revenge. I understand completely why you ditched us that one time. The reason why I went to Fond du Lac to hang out with Zack is because that is what we orginally planned a couple nights before. We talked about seeing each other that night before you, or should I say Kell, even got a hold of me about Target. I was actually planning to go straight to Target, hang out with you and Kell, then head over to hang out with Zack. Then Nicky called, saying that she was alone that night because Ben was going gaming and she wanted me to come over. Well, I decided to try and nail three birds with one stone. I asked Nick if she wanted to come with me into Fond du Lac to hang out with you guys at Target, and then she could either stay with me or go with you. Nicky said she wanted to come, so I had to wait around for her, which was a while. When she finally showed up, I grabbed her and jumped into the van. I told her to call you and that's when we heard where you guys were. We both figured you'd be there till late so I'd have enough time to at least see Zack for a little bit before heading over to you guys. We left Taco Bell around 10pm, after picking up some food cause Nick was craving tacos a little, and called you while we were getting closer to Lomira but you guys were already wrapping it up. Sorry for getting defensive, but its what I do when someone is getting angry at me and not listening to my side of the story. I understand that you write what you think in you journal and that doesn't bother me. In fact, it helps because now I know your side of the story better. There seemed to be a time in Robert's and your's relationship where all you wanted to do was be together. It hurt us, Nicky, Yuki, and I because we've never had anything like that before. For all we knew, he was stealing you away from us. We even made a promise to never get that bad. (Well, now that we're all in a strong relationship, we know where you were coming from and, each in turn, broke that promise.) I needed your support but I felt like I couldn't go to you, my sister, because you were so busy with your own life and Robert's now too. My Dad even told me that there is a time in a relationship when you want to spend more time with your boyfriend to stablize the relationship and you naturally drift away from your friends for a bit. But you will come back to them. When he told me that, I didn't get it. I'd never had a relationship like what you and Robert had. Now that I'm older, I understand. I saw you coming back to us steadly and it made me happy. Then I met Zack and, needless to say, I fell head over heels. He's the love of my life, like Robert is to you. Nicky has already drifted away from the pack to be with Ben and she's coming back, but we didn't notice she was drifting away because she was in Mayville and we had our heads lost in college. Danielle drifted away from the group to be with her Ben, and she's coming back as well, but we didn't really notice that either because she was finishing up High School in Lomira and, once again, we were submerged in college. Now, I guess, it's my turn. And to be honest, I really do want to spend more time with you guys but the last minute changes in the plan is what screwed everything up, I think. Don't be afraid to call me randomly if you want me to come and hang out with you. I'll let you know if I have anything going on. I actually do want to hang out with you, even after school, but I figured you're still mad at me and you and Robert are too busy to have me over. Just give me a call and I'll tell you what's happening. And I, Zack too, can't thank you and Robert enough for the times that you were willing to take me to see Zack, even for a little bit, or let him hang out with us. And, no, I'm not mad so don't be afraid to get in contact with me either. Hope to see and talk with you soon, my sister. ^__^ 3nodding Offline Naseku · Community Member · Tue Sep 30, 2008 @ 09:08pm

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