Edit [10:25pm]: Am feeling better now. Thank you to those who helped me think things out. I guess it was just... like a bit of depression. *sighs* I am thankful for Raziel. *smiles a bit* He's very understanding when I communicate with it. I think, for a relationship to work, there's got to be trust and communication. I'm glad.
To Nat: *sighs* I know you're right. I'm going to try and make it work! ^__^ And I hope you'll be alright, too.
To Raziel: Thank you love... thank you for making me feel loved. *hugs* I know sometimes I'm quite attention-seeking, but I really really value the love we have. I promise I will be very good! ^__^
I believe I am starting to feel the effects of Gaia on my schoolwork. *sighs* Sometimes... not often I admit, but sometimes... I feel alone. Like I'm not being supported enough for me to feel happy. I know they all try their best, and I thank them for it. But it's like... my soul is still anchorless. Why do I feel alone? I shouldn't!
I really don't know... Maybe my brain is starting to conk out. But... is it too much to ask for just that bit of extra attention???
And then... Sometimes I just feel so unloved. Cause if I want any affection from someone, I have to go and ask for it. Nobody gives me affection on the initiative, on their own. What's wrong with wanting a hug, a kiss, or something that would make me feel loved? I look at Nat and Jorgey. They're so happy, they give each other luffs and everything. I wish... somehow... I could be like that. sad But it's not true, not for me at least. *sighs*
Why don't I feel loved?
AngelRaz · Thu Sep 22, 2005 @ 12:17am · 1 Comments |