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cant handle the truth
leis conceal
you hide
from the pain thats real

you cry when im away
you laugh when im around
you dont tell me whats wrong
your problems make no sound

my spine
turns to thorns
when i dont fix the problem
you scorn

but yet you tell me not
what your problems are
so throughout my body
im left with a scar

you leave me
with my heart on the ground
like barf on a sidewalk
damaging that something weighing only one pound

but you get mad
you run off
you punch me in the stomach
as i let out a cough

you come back
and you say you miss me
but i know the truth
finally you see

i was worth more
then that of crap
so you throw things in my face
leading me to a trap

how could you leave me
leave me in pain
then want me back
seeing the heart you slain

that red blot
that liquid that drips out
thats my heart
after you left without a doubt

thats whats left
i cant love with that
it looks like something
after an attack with a cat

you lied to my face
you didnt wnat me at all
you led me to my death
you led me to my fall

hurts more
after you push me deep
into a nightmare
forever i sleep

darkness consumes me
enters my soul
now i long for love
to make me whole

you earsed my steps
you cleared me from your heart
you pasted me picture on your wall
and began throwing dirts'

notes and letters
cut my skin
friends ive lost
torn again

lost in this pain
reason all gone
i thought you wanted me
i thought i was the one

now you just obsess
on getting me back
when you know
our friendship we lack

you try to comfort me
but it feels like knives
deep within my back
how i wish to feel alive

gone without touch
you want only the thought
nothing else
not even the love i brought

if you truely wanted me
you wouldnt have let me go
you wouldnt have thrown my heart
you wouldnt have sunk me low

my eyes meet the floor
knowing my true pain
you think ill let you back
after causing such pain

your arms wide open
are like the beheading of my trail
as if found gualty
for making my love worth while

i wouldnt want you
not now nor ever
sorrows taste
leaves me unclever

dont come to me
thinking im truth
because youll leave me
to make the floor the roof

like a window smashing
like a baseball bat
you treated me harshly
like a rat

oh sorry
i forgot a rats much more
i forgot theyre above me
slamming my heart shut
locking the door

so dont come to me
saying your in pain
when im not around
you dont wear this chain