*yawns* i'm sleepy. i've been having dreams lately, i mean for the longest time i wasn't dreaming, it sorta reminded me of death... i'd just fall asleep and there was nothing, pitch black and i didn't even feel like i was there it was like my entire being my soul just disappeared for eight hours a day, it was emptyness which i didn't hate nor did i like, it was somewhat of a purgatory like feeling but then again i couldn't even feel myself (if that makes sense) its like going under anesthesia, sorta.
you know that poem "i think its kind of funny, i think its kind of sad, that the dreams in which i'm dying are the best i've ever had." it's true for me, my nightmares are my favorite they shake my soul and the best part about them is when the earth is crumbling before your feet and when you're sure you're gonna die...you wake up, well i do at least, sometimes i wish i wouldn't just to experience it (sounds emo i know) but i think the whole prospect of dreams and nightmares is amazing almost like another dimension inside you where you have control and everything turns out all right in the end, like a special movie you see and live every night. and the best feeling is waking up from an especially horrible nightmare, that relief of being in your bed, in your home if anything its worth the nightmares to have that feeling, in my opinion at least. anyway lately i can control my dreams which is awesome and even tell when i'm dreaming and wake myself up too its like a higher being of self awareness, i love it... today i got to feel something amazing i feel asleep in the shower (i do not reccomend it, i'm glad i didnt drown) the water slowley began to sound more like rain and i drifted into a dream completely aware the whole time it was amazing and calming, almost like some sort of spell or being hypnotized, i think i'll continue to experiment with my dreams because i feel like i'm slowly becoming more in control of my being.
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