Does he know it to be true? I love him still. I don't find this to be a mistake, I should have seen this coming. I'm hurting inside but on the outside I feel fine. I miss him already and it's only been a few hours. We aren't a couple...no longer engaged...We are single. I hate to think of it this way...but I have broken my promises too many times before. This is why I did it.
I'm failing my math class and I'm passing my other courses. Thats ok right? Well, If I left to go to GA now, It would be better to go ahead and enroll in my Veterinary college (UGA). Problem: They see the F for math, a 4 credit hour class, and I may not get excepted because my others classes aren't enough to balance it. What should I do? I have to take more classes...Another semester here and get A's...The go straight to UGA. Good, no? Well....everytime you transfer, you loose credits...Not good...I transfere to AMC...I loose maybe 1 or two credits...Then I have to take whatever classes to make up at that college....Well anyway...Forget it...no point in explaining it here. It is just the case where Transfering alot is not a good choice...I'll listen to my mom this time and try to do this right.
If we are meant to work out..we will. And I know we will...I just know it...I love him too much to see him go. But to be honest, I DO NOT wish to find him with someone else....If that is what I find...I deserve it. Cause he did not deserve to suffer with me as long as he did. I refuse to fall in love ever again, because it hurts too much. If I have to go through life alone, I will and I will isolate myself....Because I don't want to remember....remember what it was like to love so much till you hurt so bad you'd think your heart would explode. If I do this my way...I will be in GA in the summer...Another semester indeed and I will start school in the fall. No...not fun at all....cause his love....was all that kept me going...It was to build our home and our family but now....It's just for me....to live in my little home...with my two dogs and two cats...and.....and....my broken spirit, heart, and soul.......
I'm failing my math class and I'm passing my other courses. Thats ok right? Well, If I left to go to GA now, It would be better to go ahead and enroll in my Veterinary college (UGA). Problem: They see the F for math, a 4 credit hour class, and I may not get excepted because my others classes aren't enough to balance it. What should I do? I have to take more classes...Another semester here and get A's...The go straight to UGA. Good, no? Well....everytime you transfer, you loose credits...Not good...I transfere to AMC...I loose maybe 1 or two credits...Then I have to take whatever classes to make up at that college....Well anyway...Forget it...no point in explaining it here. It is just the case where Transfering alot is not a good choice...I'll listen to my mom this time and try to do this right.
If we are meant to work out..we will. And I know we will...I just know it...I love him too much to see him go. But to be honest, I DO NOT wish to find him with someone else....If that is what I find...I deserve it. Cause he did not deserve to suffer with me as long as he did. I refuse to fall in love ever again, because it hurts too much. If I have to go through life alone, I will and I will isolate myself....Because I don't want to remember....remember what it was like to love so much till you hurt so bad you'd think your heart would explode. If I do this my way...I will be in GA in the summer...Another semester indeed and I will start school in the fall. No...not fun at all....cause his love....was all that kept me going...It was to build our home and our family but now....It's just for me....to live in my little home...with my two dogs and two cats...and.....and....my broken spirit, heart, and soul.......
