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You don't know how it feels.
To be unwanted.
When your life is a mess.
And everything feels so real.
I am a fake.
I put on a show.
But little does everyone know.
Everyday my pain grows.
My heart slashed into pieces.
My soul is depression.
My heart is black.
Each and every day more self-confidence is what I lack.
I love you.
You have not any idea.
How I feel.
To you would it be unreal?
Did I ever mention.
I think about you all the time.
Your always spinning in my head.
Always on my mind.
And then I just cry.
Silent to myself.
I can't have you.
Because of someone else.
You are the only person.
that's made me feel this way.
I won't stay much longer.
Because it causes all this emotional pain.
I would do anything.
Just to have your love.
If for once in a while that I could be the thing that your thinking of.
Did it ever occur to you.
That you kill me.
But once again I sit here alone.
Nobody here but me.
I am the patron saint of lonely.
I fear that you will forget.
Forget if i don't tell you.
Some day you will forget.
How much I truly love you.
Because you don't care.
And life isn't fair.
Your all I wanted.
Was that so hard to spare?
I loved you when I slept.
I loved you when I wept.
No matter what you do.
I will always be in love with you.
It kills me inside.
To know you don't feel the same.
Someday i will go insane.
So many tears I have to hide...
I wear a Smile on my face every day.
Too bad nobody knows that the smile is ever so fake.
I hold back my tears.
And I push away my fears.
Not a day goes by.
That I don't think of you.
I love you.
You better believe it's true.
You are the only thing.
that makes my life worth while.
But I have learned not to weep over this.
The sad thing is I had never had you as a friend.
And even though you don't love me.
I believe our love will last until the end.
But someday I must tell myself the truth
I will never be with you.