After the talk with Arthur, It made me realize that I was just like the other girls. I was mesmerized by his voice, eyes, smile, body, and the scent which makes me go crazy. I wished I could hold it back more so he doesn't think I'm as shallow as they are. He walked me to my locker and offered to give a ride home. I didn't want to ride with him because I didn't want to do it with him in the back seat. He saw my expression with the ride and automatically made me blush.
"Don't worry, the back of my corvette is not big for the both of us. I wouldn't be able to seduce you back there." He said it with such ease like he said it to every girl in this whole state.
"I wasn't thinking about that." I was lying through my teeth. "I was hoping my parents didn't notice I got a ride from a guy...It would be weird on my first day that I found someone already." I smiled breathlessly and he held my hand tighter.
"I was just kidding with you. I have never had sex with a girl before...so I think I would be bad at it! Sorry for the disappointment."
"No I'm a virgin also. I didn't think you would because of all the girls that throw themselves at you." "Just because they give me more attention than most guys, doesn't mean I take them in my room every weekend like a male jiggalo."
He stuck his tounge out and made a slight farting sound which made me giggle a little more than I had planned.
"I know your not...I was just wondering why you never found the girl since they follow you like puppies?"
"I guess they never had a spark of interest to me. I mean don't get me wrong, the beauty queen even asked me out in my freshman, sophmore, and junior year and everyone wanted her also. I was always nominated prom king and homecoming king when really seniors were supposed to be nominated for those places. I just never saw any girl like they see me in their eyes." He shut my locker for me with his left and his right hand kept hold to my left hand. I forgot how long we held hands, but it felt nice. "I just haven't found the right girl yet that's all. But I think my mind is changed now."
I looked to him to see if he was talking about me, but sadly he was looking outside a window. She was not outside the window trust me she was holding his hand at this very moment. I still wanted to hear if I really was his girl...or if he thought we were just friends. I found the answer out soon enough.
"Look I'm sorry for putting all this baggage on you on your first day, but I had to let someone know." Arthur then frowned and glanced his soft eyes in my direction and dropped my hand. I gripped only the air once again and held my stance.
"What's the matter? Your not getting me stressed with anything your saying. I'm fine really!" I started to stutter so I was glad that I stopped saying I was fine over and over again.
"Well do you think we could take this slow..I mean as friends first than dating, I mean tonight can be a date, but just as friends. You can understand that this is my first realationship and I don't want to screw it up for the both of us. So to answer your question I don't think we should date this early in the game."
What game? Why now when he held my hand not even two seconds ago. He seemed fine when he was talking to me all day. Why did he have a split change in his mind when he said that? I noticed we were not alone. Girls left and right were listening closely to our conversation and relaxed when they heard the statement, 'Just as friends.' I wanted to run away from his sorry gaze and just run all the way home until I reached my room. Unfortuantly my feet wouldn't move for me not even for today. I held back tears because I thought I was different. Turned out hiding my lust from him didn't work.
"I'm sorry Faith. I don't want to make a mistake. I just met you today, but it seems like I've known you forever. It's weird you make me feel different about myself, but something about you seems different and I can't put my finger on it."
"What ever It is I can change it. I won't give you grief. I can try to help you in every wa-"
"Faith it's not you..It's me." Arthur took my hand again and put it on his face. "I need to make sure that all these girls will never get in our way. I want to make sure that you really are the right one."
With that he dropped my hand and walked through the front doors where we firt met. Were we walking when we started talking? I didn't even notice that I was standing in the traffic of kids coming and going out of the school. I stood there with disbelief in my face. He broke up with me even though we weren't dating. How the hell does that work? I thought you were supposed to date that person and then they break your heart or you break there's. Maybe all the love movies lied to you. It was tv and it wasn't reality. This was real life not a script. I was in pain and broken. Like a long lost family member you held on to dearly died in your arms. It seemed like that just much worst. I snapped back and realized that Arthur didn't give me a number or my address. How were we going to go to our date tonight? I guess it was over before he even thought I walked outside and the sun was not even shinning. Who cares right? My paradise was gone and I would never see the sun shinning again.
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