hi..today wasnt all that bad i guess... yesterday i found out that the guy that i liked, even loved, is getting married on gaia. it does hurt, but as long as he is happy, i'm fine with it. i obviously dont like the idea...but i can wait. i dont know how long i'll be waiting, but i promise that i'll stay and wait. i was always in the dark, until i met him. i always thought that i was all alone, until he showed me that he was the same. i didnt feel alone anymore. he made a difference in me. now i feel like i'm drifting off into darkness again, but i have a little light with me. the memories of him. and i can tell him straight up that i will never change my feelings about him. they will never change, no matter how much he denies it. he can say any bad thing about me, and i wouldnt care. he can treat me horribly, and i would still care about him. he could try to forget me, but i will never forget him....never. he pulled me out of the darkness and filled my heart with happiness, and it was the first time that i couldnt get him out of my mind. every night and almost every second, i think about him...whether he's far away from me or not.
i can promise im though, that i loved him for him. he is sweet and kind, and i know that he would never hurt me. he is a very good friend, no matter what wrong thing he does or wat n e 1 says about him.no matter what he thinks, nothing will ever change my mind. i'm a stubborn cat, and thats how i am.
~quote of the day~
-pain doesn't hurt when it's all you've ever felt-
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i want to be left alone, so pfft you.
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