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I am truly lucky
but to blind to see what I have

I am blessed
but to focused on something else to notice

Thinking about all of the things that I dont have
cloud my mind when I try and think of all that I do have

I am thankful
very, very thankful
for everything that I have

For my friends...
for myself
and yes, I know its crazy, but for the family I have too

I am thankful for him
Because even though he cant be mine...
even though we cant be anything more than friends,
Hes there for me... hes with me

And yes Im selfish
I know that
because I do still want him in a way Im not supposed to

But its different..yet exactly the same
I love him, but I can live seeing him with someone else
Im not okay with it...but it doesnt bother me as much as it could
If hes happy, so am I

Im selfish, but its okay to think about yourself first
Even if it is only once and a while