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I found myself staring at a man... A man whom I had never before met, but whom I had seen a thousand times in my dreams.. He resembled a patch of fog; with his grey hair down past his shoulders, his snow-like beard grown far past his chin, and with kind, dying blue eyes sunken in with age. This man was the father I had never seen. However, in an instant I recognized him from my dreams. The man that caused my mental breakdown, the very man who had left before I was born, leaving me only a pair of handcuffs and pictures of an Asian woman behind, was standing just a few feet away. One would assume that I had become a racist cop who only jailed those with yellow tans, but no. I took the frustrations I felt for having no father out on poor nail salon workers for years before I stopped..

I had only been out of prison for a week when my father showed up at my step. I was afraid he was a door-to-door salesman trying to sell me a new door, since I had none to speak of. But to my surprise, it was the man I had grown up not knowing who knocked.. I shyly answered, bundled up in my black pleather coat with no stockings and a lizard curled up around my feet that resembled a dragon. Would this man know what I had become? Had my father seen the incident at the nail salon and felt remorse for spawning a devil-child like me? I couldn't face the truth, so I quickly slammed the nonexistent door shut..

I heard him crying on the front step a moment later. However, once I went to check on him again, there laid only a top hat where my father had once been. Slowly, feeling the tears rush up from nowhere, I bent over to grab the hat. That's when a neighborhood boy let out a whistle and screamed "Sexii Mama! Bend over a little slower next time, baby".

Upon hearing those insincere words emanate from a boy no older than 15, I quickly ran over to him and gave him a lesson about talking so pleasantly to a woman of my stature...

And now I'm in jail... again. But this time it is for having sex with a minor... in his house... and having it on video tape... with his parents in front of us...

All bc of my father...