I have to be such a martyr, don't I?
I just want her to have something.... I don't want to see her hurting because I'm not there. I want her holding some other guy's hand, a smile on her face, no matter how much it hurts me. But she won't accept that. I'm going to make her accept it. She needs to accept it. She needs to experience life.
Something I haven't had in a while. I don't want her to go through her teen years without it. It would ruin her. It hurts me just to think about it.
So I'll sacrifice myself for our love. I'll kill myself, lie, and hurt her, hurting me too, to make her move on with her life. I just hope she will. I don't want her stuck on me. I want her, but I want what's best for her, even if that means I have to lie to her. And hurt her, and myself. I'll do it.
I'm used to hurting anyways.
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What a sick, masochistic lion.
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Haru Uchiha Teh Wolf
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What a sick, masochistic lion.
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I don't want anyone else.
I want you.
I... I do like the idea of being able to hold hands with someone.
But that someone... I can't. I can't hold they're hand.
They're hand isn't in reach.
Others asked me out. I could have said yes. I could have left you and I could have expierenced everything I'm missing out on.
But that's not what I want/wanted(?).
You can keep acting like you hate me.
You can actually hate me.
But it's going to be a long time before I even attempt to love someone else.
Ha.
Like it would work, anyway...