I just feel so overjoyed.
Lately I've been in a really good mood. Some of you may be wondering "Why the sudden change in personality?"
I haven't changed though. I've just been.. deppressed for so long.
I haven't changed. I'm just happy. I feel normal again, like I used to. For those of you who knew me for a long time, you may remember how I was before all of this, I know Ana and Tomo might. That's how I've been feeling lately.
I feel like a happy little girl again. ^^
I just feel so.. alive. I don't know how to explain it. I've just let go of a huge burden I've been carrying. It's the most indescribable feeling.
I was upset and scared at first. I found myself to feel coldhearted and not human. This was because I wasn't reacting to upsetting situations like I normally do. I wasn't getting as upset, and I was being calm and rational instead. I wasn't letting seemingly little things get to me so much. Or seemingly little in anothers perspective.
After a while, I came to accept myself. I wasn't being coldhearted. I just wasn't used to feeling this way.
This all happened around the time Danni came into my life. I feel so blessed and grateful to have ever met someone like him. He's opened my eyes. And I really do want to change, for the better.
I used to wake up every morning cursing the day. I used to think "Oh great, this is going to happen during this part of the day, I know it!" Lately, I've been taught to think more openminded. To not be so pessimistic. Those thoughts, they aren't entirely gone. But I've definitely been trying and .. I just.. generally feel better.
:] Anyways, I just wanted to blog about it.
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Princess Kitaaa · Tue Nov 25, 2008 @ 05:55pm · 0 Comments |