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Pathetic.
I really effed up this time. Why couldn't I tell the truth?
'cause I'm a effing coward.
I'm ashamed of myself.
I hate myself.
I'm a BAD person.
I hate myself...so much.
So much.
I'm a fool. A moron. A dumbass. A jackass. A coward. A jerkoff. A bad person.
I'm a bad person.
Basically, I'm a foolish pathetic bad person.
I effed up. I hate myself. More than anyone. Well...almost anyone.

I realized something about the past couple of months...

Everytime...
Lying has caused nothing but trouble, pain, and more for me...and for others.
It seems lying only makes things worse.
But I'm going to change. Not just for me, but for everyone. Everyone.
I don't care if anyone gives a rat's a** or NOT.
That's not the point.
The point is, I'm going to stop lying. I'm going to be truthful from now on.
And if telling the truth could get me in trouble(in many possible ways), then so be it. I realized that it's better to tell the truth than to lie.

So I swear from now on...
I shall no longer lie.