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The Life and Lies
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Rinita Hallows
This is my autobiography. It will be split into SIX parts ALL on this entry. The six parts are "My Personal Life", "chomster", "Alisha Holybane", "Rinita Hallows Pt. One", "Alisha Hallows", and "Rinita Hallows Pt. Two". This will contain details about my life outside Gaia and in Gaia. Hope you read! Comments are appreciated.
My Personal Life
My real name is Erica. I was born in Canada on May 11, 1992. I have
one older brother who was born October 7th, 1988, and one younger
sister who was born September 24th, 1994. I also have my two
parents, mom was born November 1st, Dad was born the day after. I always felt somewhat different from my family because if you look at our birthdays, we seem different; my whole family's birthday is bunched up in Fall but me, whose birthday is all alone in May. I always just think this is a coincidence, but sometimes I wonder: is it?
I always feel like the unloved, unimportant part of the family. I feel like I'm a slave. I do most of the work in the house; I clean (with occasional help from my dad -- not my mom), I cook (not all the time; but more than my mom), I organize any events my parents want -- I do it all. Whenever something needs to be done, my parents always know they can count on me; they know I'll do it. And if I tell them I'll do it later, they'll get mad, and I'll feel bad and there will always be a little disappointed voice in my head going "Why aren't you doing it? Why aren't you doing it?" over and over until I give in. I envy my brother and sister; whenever my parents tell them to do work, they always complain and yell and then get out of it; but I can't yell at my parents, or else I'll feel horrible.
I've been told some pretty rough things from my parents in the past. My mom has told me my siblings will be more successful then me, my dad told me he likes me the least out of me, my brother, and my sister and whenever I want something, my whole family gets into an argument about why I shouldn't have it. I always have to make a Birthday List to tell my parents what I want for my birthday; they have no clue what to get me. By far, my worst birthday present must be a Thermos. THERMOS. They bought me a CONTAINER for my birthday.
Even though I think I'm the worst treated in my family, I'm not going to say that everyone else in my family lives a perfect life. I feel sorry for my dad because I don't think he gets much joy in life. He goes to business trips every week, when he comes back he helps me with cleaning or does some of the stuff I'm not strong enough to do; he never gets a proper vacation. I went on vacation with my mom and brother and sister this summer but my dad couldn't go because he might get a call saying he had to go on another business trip. I'm sure it was nice having the house to himself but he must've been lonely.
My brother and sister; I don't pay much attention to them. They're almost always never at home.
And my mom is the laziest and most selfish person I know. She always talks about how she does everything around the house and how no one helps her when it's not true. She makes ME do everything for her. She makes me clean every inch in my kitchen; you know the space between the cabinets under the counter and the floor? She makes me clean that every week. The only way you can see that space clearly is by lying down.
Before I go on further into my school life, let me just talk about my condition. Around Christmas about two years ago, I got into a car crash that damaged my heart. I always had chest pains and always had to go the doctor and a couple weeks ago I finally got a heart attack which nearly killed me. The doctors say the heart attack weakened my heart and the chances to get a more fatal heart attack is better. If I get shocked, or if I get extremely sad, or if I get extremely angry, I could potentially die.
In school, I'm more free then I am at home. I have some friends but only ONE of them is in ONE of my classes. So in 3 out of 4 of my classes, I'm completely alone. I would say I'm quiet and reserved and I listen more then I talk. It's annoying to talk to my friends because they have each other in almost every class and they always talk about things that happened in their classes which I barely understand. It's hard for me to make friends at school because I'm WAY too shy for my own good. I hate people easy but I don't know if I'm easy to hate. If people I like hate me, I start to obsess over why they hate me. I try my best not to say anything rude to anyone and the only people I be mean to are my friends -- but just for fun. I have dated lots of people but I've broken up with them easily. I don't usually dump my boyfriends because I don't have the guts to say it and I don't know HOW people say it; it's really hard.
A couple days ago, my friends told me to stop being a pushover. They told me I'm too nice to people and I always do whatever people tell me to do. Is that my fault? At home, I always do what my parents tell me to do and if I don't do something for someone, I'll think they'll hate me so I do it for them. I don't want people to hate me because it's already hard for me to make friends so I always do things for people. I thought I was being nice, but after my friends told me I'm a pushover, I think that's why people are making me do so much favours.
I used to go on a forum from 2005-first half of 2006. Here I opened up way more to people I don't know; how I act on the internet is almost the exact opposite of how I act in real life. I went on the Role Play section a couple times, too. I love writing and I liked the idea of having your character interact with someone else's character; instead of having your character interact with another one of your characters. The people there liked how I RPed, so they introduced me to a site where they role played a little differently. See, the way that site role played was you can control other people's characters, too, as long as you didn't change how they act or anything.
Anyways, as you may have guessed, the site I was introduced to was GaiaOnline.
chomster
I joined Gaia on July 24th, 2006. I was the noobiest of all noobs. I was SOOO clueless about everything. I went to Barton Town and made two RPs that people actually joined. One I remember was about an evil man who became king and you had to cope with the town that was controlled by him. It went on about ... five pages? My other one was a romance RP that lasted 20ish pages before it was blocked for some reason.
One of the first places I looked for RPs was the University area in Barton Town. I joined an RP that was about a simple magic school. There I met two friends, one whose name I can't remember because she changed it. The other person was KiyoTakamine and we're friends to this day. After the RP went on for a couple weeks, soon everyone left but me, Kiyo, and our friend whose name I can't remember. The RP was dying but I didn't want it, too. It was the only place where I had fun and I sort of had a small crush on Kiyo and I didn't want him to leave. But then he stopped RPing and I got mad and tracked him down and found him in an RP called Vampire Mansion that was very successful. I asked him why he stopped RPing and he told me because the RP was dead. Some people in the RP started making fun of me but I can't remember who they were. I told Kiyo that the RP was dead because he stopped RPing and he told me to just join the Vampire Mansion RP. I asked if I could because I thought I wouldn't be allowed because it was so successful. The people that were insulting me suddenly became nice and said I could join and I created my character, Alisha Ware.
I was a super noob, still. I could barely RP. My lines were one line and were like three words (eg. "Alisha followed him." wink . I was sad that Kiyo's character was in a relationship with someone because I was hoping Alisha could have some romantic interactions with him. I then found someone else for my character to interact with. Rion Bloodbane. I don't know why, but I packed up my bags and stopped having a crush on Kiyo and moved on to him. I remember I was SOOOO nervous when I wanted to ask him a question via PM. Sadly, I realized, his character was in a relationship as well and his character got two ladies pregnant.
I should tell you before I go on, everything you said in this RP to another character, people assumed you would say that to the actual person. So if you and someone else got in a fight, the actual RPers would get in a fight. It was fun but weird.
Eventually, the RP became my life and since it was, I changed my username to something better ...
Alisha Holybane
I can't remember exactly when, but I know Rion's chatacter broke up with his girlfriend and moved on to a relationship with Alisha. This is when the second last paragraph in the "chomster" section is important. Our characters were together, and so people thought we were, too.
Obviously, I took it literally as well and I had a HUUUUGE crush on Rion. HUGE. Like, he was my life on Gaia now. The only reason I kept going online was for him, to talk to him.
A couple months after, him, me, and my sister got into a heated discussion. She thought we were a cute couple so she said we should get Gaia married. He didn't believe that so he kept saying no. I, honestly, wanted to get Gaia married to him. Like, I thought it was a confirmation that we were best friends.
I made the most friends while my username was Alisha Holybane. I was more popular in the VMRP (Vampire Mansion Role Play) as my character was important to the unknown plot. People, me included, consider that I was most popular when my username was Alisha Holybane.
Soon after, in the VMRP, a huge secret was unveiled. One of the people in the RP turned to be someone who he/she wasn't. One of the people part of the RP turned out to be a 40 year old man, and I'm not lying. After this, the RP started dying. People started leaving, going to other RPs and some of my friends didn't even go online anymore. The RP didn't have as much people anymore and we tried to bring everyone back but it was no use. The VMRP was dead and it was never coming back.
I don't remember what happened after that, much, but I remember I did something HORRIBLE. H. O. R. R. I. B. L. E. Something that ruined lots of my relationships with friends, and something that, I think, really broke me and Rion apart.
I don't want to go into too much detail about what I did. But I WILL tell you, it involved me changing my username.
Rinita Hallows Part One
I changed my name to Rinita Hallows. I was still good friends with Rion. Very good friends. But I can't remember if we were still Gaia married at this point.
At this point, I threatened to leave many times. I held giveaways and gave away my gold but I ended up not leaving. I didn't like the way Gaia was running and I didn't like what I did, and the fact that the VMRP was dead.
I went back to making more RPs. I made one called Garus Academy of Magic that went well, until I decided to kill it when I was about to leave. I did make a Medieval RP that, surprisingly, went very well. I think this was the last time Rion showed his 'obsession' with me.
See, me and Rion were good friends and I always had the impression he was following me because every RP I joined, he joined, too. He joined by Medieval RP as well, but my character, for once, wasn't in love with his.
This is where I met Gervax, but I called him Brett, so we'll call him that. My character loved his. Me and Brett got along exactly like how me and Rion got along. I really liked him, and if I'm not mistaken, he really liked me, too.
We talked all the time and he was the new reason why I kept going on Gaia. We really liked each other and I think we somehow met up in real life, I do think we'd have gone out.
When I was Rinita Hallows, lots of fighting and arguing went on. The only good thing that came out of it was that Brett and me were now best friends.
Then, I don't know what made me do it, I did the stupid thing again. The horrible thing I mentioned? Yeah, that. I did it again for some reason and it, again, involved me changing my name.
Alisha Hallows
Alisha Hallows was a mixture of my favourite usernames, as you can see.
By now, Rion didn't show that much obsession anymore and I wanted it. I missed talking to Rion and I liked my talks with him more then I liked the talks with Brett. Around the end of my Rinita Hallows time, I began stalking Rion a lot more (we had out fair share of stalkings). I did it because I wanted his attention again. But, it seemed, he liked a certain other girl more. I'm not sure if he liked her more than me but I thought he did and I held a huge grudge on her. I got very jealous when Rion was around other girls.
Brett and I began talking again. When he thought I was gone in the gap between me as Rinita and me as Alisha, he began flirting with another girl. But when I came back, he stopped and we started talking again. I was jealous when he talked to other girls, too, and I briefly got angry with him when he was canoodling with another girl.
After a while with less talks with Rion and more talks with Brett, I found a thread. I knew I couldn't join RPs anymore because I wasn't online as much as I used to be. So I wanted to join a thread that if I was gone, it wouldn't matter. I joined Give-A-Gift, or GaG.
The main reason I joined it was for friends, honestly, because I was lacking them, and also because I knew my relationship with Brett would end. He was annoying me by now and I was looking for an oppurtunity to ignore him. I know it sounds harsh but it's true.
Soon after, I gained much more friends in GaG and I was receiving gifts, which was my new goal. I was getting somewhat greedy and I had received 800k worth of items. But I lost all of it.
In September, I received a CoCo from Dr-Rawr. This was the biggest item I've ever received so I felt the need to repay him. We started a beautiful relationship in the PMs and he kept flirting with me and, I hate to say it, I flirted with him also. I gained a crush on him but I knew he was in a relationship. He kept saying he wanted to kiss me or hug me in real life but knew he couldn't. I'm not saying I told him this was weird; I liked him. I went along with it. And I kept giving so he wouldn't stop liking me. You want to know what the last item I gave to him was?
My CoCo. I gave it to him in case my sister took it and he told he was going to sell it and he promised he would buy me a 120k worth item after he finished his dream avi. He never did. It was like he never even gave me a CoCo. He just took it back and sold it. He started questing for his friend after and then I found out he tricked me and now he never goes online.
I was heartbroken. I thought he liked me. He never did.
What I hate is, I was as good as hacked. I thought people in GaG would help me get back. No one did. Only two people did and there are awesome. winter snowdust, who bought be a CoCo and Delinquent Sins, who gave me many EIs and MCs.
Someone came on my account and sold my CoCo and took the gold. It just disappeared one day. I'm still extremely sorry to her about it. CoCo's aren't that cheap. I'm just extremely unlucky I guess.
Rinita Hallows Part Two
Now I'm back to my original account. Sins has helped me out once again, and I'm extremely thankful. Some people have also tried to help me, and I thank them, too.
Now I'm obsessed with trying to get Level 5 Fortune Eggs. I want the 2mill Coin, 5mill Coin, Bunny Clippers, or Chicky Slippers. I even planned out what I'd do with them.
2mill Coin-
250k to Rion
250k to Her Nathan
125k to GaG
The rest for giveaways and myself.
5mill coin-
1mill to Rion
1mill to Her Nathan
500k to GaG
The rest to give aways and myself
Bunny Slippers&Chicky Slippers
7.5mill to Rion
7.5mill to Her Nathan
5mill to GaG
The rest for giveaways and myself
I also plan to give gold to Sins, Tinky, and Marshie. I just don't know how much.
I doubt I'll ever get these items let alone a Level 5 Fortune Egg. People don't seem to want to help me anymore. Only a couple people help me now and people don't even act like anything happened to me.
I've become more obsessed with gold. Only because I've never completed a dream avi. I would love to. I know it's only pixels but ...
My life on Gaia hasn't really been a walk in the park. I think it's become very important to me. I like Gaia because even though there are lots of people, it's easier to make friends. Gaia is the life I want to live. I would love to stop living in reality and live in Gaia forever.
But that's never going to happen.
That's me. My autobiography. I hope you enjoyed it. And if not, I apologize for wasting your time. It took me 2.5 hours to write this. Please comment. :]
 Rinita Hallows · Sun Nov 30, 2008 @ 03:38pm · 21 Comments |
