There's so much running through my head... And it's like I can't express it all in words. So I almost cried on the way home from school today. Whatever. So I can't focus on my studying. Whatever. I really don't know what to do.
I just don't want anyone to hurt cause of me. So, I want all of you to live your lives. I appreciate all the care you all give me... It's so much more than I could have ever hoped for, and so much more than I deserve. It's true I want love... [who doesn't, really]... but I will not make anyone hurt cause of my happiness. Or at least I'll try not to.
There goes my resolve.
Oh, I really AM horrible.
I just wish... he could just pretend... and love me for awhile... even if it's only pretend... cause I can't stand to live on my own... I'd want to live that memory again and again. I just wish... for even five minutes... he could pretend to love me. Even if only pretend.
...Oh I really AM horrible~!!! *breaks down again*
But I guess it IS a lot to ask. Blah. Ah well.
To you, him and all my friends: Thanks for all your support... Thank you so much~!
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Happy Birthday Nathan. Happy Birthday.
AngelRaz · Thu Oct 13, 2005 @ 10:17am · 3 Comments |